My longest streak! 25 days

I am not 100% this is the right place to post my story, but I do consider this 25-days journey a success. A little background, I am 27 years old, currently studying in Germany and I am bi-sexual. Bi-sexual can be a problem, because your enemy doesn't include beautiful girls but also hot dudes. I decided to try no pmo ever since I moved to Germany last year, and I had ups and downs, but so far I reached 25 days, which were my longest streak, two times. The feeling was amazing. I gained back my self confidence and all the brain fogs were gone.

In the first two weeks, everything went smooth and comparately easy. I could feel the improvement and start to recoginze and enjoy people checking me out. People like men who have self confidence and no pmo indeed helped me on that. However, after 14 days, things went south and I needed so much effort to kick out the urges and focus myself on my study. The last 10 days were the most torturing while inspiring moment throughout the journey because I realized that there were some pattern leading to PMO.

1. Confronting problems
2. Failour and negative emotion
3. Boredom & Loneliness

1. One time when I was working on a project which programming skills are required and I lacked, the first thing came to my mind was PMO. It is difficult to admit that we want to escape when we are facing an obstecle which seems unbreakable. The deadline was in two days and I couldn't figure out what went wrong with the software and data. I had no helps and no time, and I was frustrated and no one was around, so what would be a better time than now to fap. However that time I didn't fap, because I know I have no time, and fapping won't help me to run through all the data and figure out the result. Instead I was doing push-up when the thought of PMO popped up. It actually worked and I re-focused myself on the project. Of coz, eventually I spent my entire afternoon to solve everything, but it was totally worth the time and effort. I finish my project and I know that I couldn't fap away my problem.

2. Failour and negative emotion. This is kind of tricky because emotion is not easy to control and when you are alone, this emotion hits you harder than ever. I read a lot of story on nofap and negative emotion seems to be one of the biggest problems triggering relapses. My experience is facing it. Finding out what is the problem leading to this sadness, and see if you can solve it. Sometimes it is just something bad happened and we need to learn to move on. Yes it is difficult but fixating on something happened won't make you a happy person and will destroy your plan. Try meditation or watching some video to release the tears if necessary. It doesn't make you weak. It makes you stronger and brave to face your challenges.

3. Boredom and loneliness. Unfortunately boredom and loneliness brought my to relapse. I couldn't handle the feeling of loneliness and emptiness. I initially was doing monk mode but I was bored and I couldn't help surfing on those dating apps. We had a long holiday last week and everyone in my flat-sharing was out. There was only me and a 3-storey house. I felt bored and lonely because it was a holiday and I don't have friends or family around. I did meet a lot of people, but I couldn't really connect to them. I met people and had dates but most of them were just physically. When the loneliness and boredom developed, I just couldn't handle it anymore so I hooked up with three people in two days. I was exhausted but it seemed like the engine got turned on and after those meets up, I relapsed.

The feeling was terrible. I don't want to have this feeling anymore. However, I know that I still couldn't handle boredom and loneliness, next time I will still fall into the same trap. I have been watching some couching videos online but still need some times to digest. I guess I am going for another 30 days no pmo again, and hopefully this time works.

Sorry for the long post.
Hope you find it useful.

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Usually, I experienced that lonely feeling in the afternoon, so I didn't have to wake up at 3 am. Thank you for your advice, I will try to stay away from my room and try to be social. Do you have anything that also triggers you and you find a way to solve it?