My Mind after 10 days.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Kratos_GOW, May 17, 2019.

Are you a warrior.?

  1. Yes

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  2. No. But i will be

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  1. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    Greeting warriors, i am here posting about 10 days without PMO and how things are going.
    (Sorry for the long post)
    I would be lying to you if i said i just did this in first try. Though it is not exactky something to be proud of but i am a little bit as for the past year i have been thinking kets do Nofap and failed considerably. Best streak was 20 days and that was in january. The problem was i could not let my mind in control.
    So what changed? A SIMPLE HOW? AND WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT.
    I understood my triggers, taking my phone in with me in washroom before bathing, alone in my room and waking up late.
    It was as like i was okay of feeling shot after PMO. And yeah as many of you know normal porn what get you erect and you tend to search some other 'things' you know what i mean. Then things happend i guess you can call them the realisation period that this is screwing me over.
    I remembered the time when i was not even introduced to porn and what was i like.
    Calm, confident, high self esteem, beloved in my class. I missed that. So i decided to join NOFAP community and i can't thank you guys enough for being so supportive.
    Telling you here, if you are need help , hit me up.
    So now i new what, now is the matter of how. I read this article and some reboot material that said that ''Unless there is a guy who would rather die then M, Willpower alone cannot exactly help you out. It is bound to run out at some point. So i focused on the benefits on NoFap.
    1. I read reboot material every night.
    2. I trained my mind to never fell to M by reading and exploring how to better control your urges online.
    3. Stopped bringing my phone everywhere.
    4. I stopped looking at P-subs {adult manga etc} as they can be potential start to fap.
    5. I never forget the feeling i had after a PMO session.
    I had to get into mindest of a warrior. And who better then Kratos from GOW series. That dude taught me a lot about your goals and mindset so i am doing that as you can see now BOY!

    SO WHATS CHANGED..?
    1. First you have a lot of time now when you start to just don't watch porn.
    2. Motivation is there not the type i expected but 90 days are still there so thats a start. I do feel motivated better then the last time.
    3. I finally had a routine, go to bed 11.30 wake up at 6 and i am doing it without feeling tired (fuck fapping late night)
    4. I do have urges bit now i have better control and commitment to myself that no means no.
    5. Its a start to eat better, sleep better. Have better relationships.
    6. Having conversation to persons that i wasn't intrested in talking before. Socially its better.
    7. And importantly you see that tmyou are growing, you feel a bit respect for yourself. Yeah you can do it bud. You believe in yourself.
    Amd that's a good start folks. I read about this sperm absorption things and its benefits so i am pumped about it.
    I will win, that the mindset. That is the mindset of a warrior. You have to have this mindset too.
    I will be posting day 20th journal so let me know if i should.
    Good luck on your jouney warriors!!!
     
  2. Great journal. will copy some of what you do.
     
  3. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    Good luck
     
  4. The Mask!

    The Mask! Fapstronaut

    Kudos to you! Write the 20th day post. Not for me, not for anybody else, but yourself.
     
  5. mayank_saurabh

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    Kudos buddy...But remember we have a long way to go...And whenever you feel weak,your bothers are there to support and encourage you
     
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  6. Kratos_GOW

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    Thanks brother
     
  7. kelsiermistborn

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    Keep at it man! Amazing :')
     
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  8. CoolBuddy7

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    Ofcourse you should brother. Awesome journal by the way, and you killed me here though brother : :p

     
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  9. CoolBuddy7

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    Love what you've said here, brother. Cool !! :)
     
  10. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    Thanks to both of you
     
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  11. You've got a seriously strong program for recovery here dude!

    That is something I haven't been doing as of yet, thank you so much. Sounds similar to something learned when quitting drinking called 'playing the tape forward-' sure you want to now and the cravings are so intense you think you'll never make it to the other side, but play it all the way through- through the action of the preparatory ritual, through the act itself, soaked in guilt and not enjoyable because you know you don't really want to do it, then the aftermath- the self-loathing, the potential consequences, the urge to give in entirely.

    Love reading your posts. Namaste from the other side of the world, hahah :p
     
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  12. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    Hey, did you relapsed recently? And you too @kelsiermistborn ???
     
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  13. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    Tell you guys what, i was surfing youtube and reading action mangas and that led to adult, i was like okay one look would not hurt ( bad choice here). As it was going on in the middle it started to turn me on a bit. Yeah not gonna lie, usually if it was happening in april i sure was to relapse but this time it was different.
    WHAT CHANGED?
    I looked at it and i was like how fucking unrealistic this thing is. That will never actually gonna happen. Its just lust all over the place.
    I was turned on, and then in the back of my mind, something said no, stop it, we have bigger things to achieve. This is not how this will go down. This is not how our streak will end. It was my warrior mindset talking to me ATM. I turned it off amd went to bed.
    And again my mind was like hey, you saw that alright why not just finish this and that wont hurt. And yeah i did opened it again, completed 1 chapter then another but again the same thing happend and i remembered the quote
    "WE WIN BECAUSE WE ARE DETERMINED, DISCIPLINED.!"
    and that right there was enough i was like fuck you i am not gonna see this. I have to get better and you are in the way.
    Fought a bit of urges but positive self talk made my way and was able to sleep.
    I was happy with my accomplishement here to not let my urges drive me. Calm, logical approach and remembering what is important is how you win.
     
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  14. CoolBuddy7

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    Yeah, some 3 days back , I did brother.

    Top notch !! I have a lot to learn from you, from this message. I want to be like you, and instead of just wanting, I feel like I have to start doing this after reading your reply. Thanks for this brother !
     
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  15. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    Wrote a new thread just now.
    If it helps you in any way. Make sure you apply this and post it to other groups also
     
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  16. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    No, dont aim to be just like me.
    SURPASS ME!!!
     
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  17. Kratos_GOW

    Kratos_GOW Fapstronaut

    I wish you good luck. Namste
     
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  18. CoolBuddy7

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    Classy ! I will try though. Good luck to you too brother.
     
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