My moment of clarity

I'm at that point where I read a Vice article on my friends FB page on the 21 day challenge, after somewhat of a life altering event I decided to take that challenge.
Well firstly my life altering event:
One night I was drinking with some people and there is this big woman (like her stomach fat hangs to the side when she sits down) who was really drunk, we've hung around before but as buddies, I've never made any indication of getting with her or even light flirting but this one night she was deep in "liquid courage". She decided to crawl into my room and "sleep", afterwards her friend went and check-up on her and said her panties we on the floor and she was spread eagle waiting for me. I was totally pissed-off that she would have done that. Worst off her friends left my place, leaving me to deal with this. I spent the rest of the night on my couch thinking, when I went to take a piss I peaked into my room and her friend was right, there she was without any panties........................INSTANT LOSS OF SEXUAL DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Afterwards I closed the door and came to a realization! Am I that "sad" that someone like her would think she would have had a chance with me. Anyways I drank the rest of my drink and passed out with a new outlook, it was time to better improve myself and firstly, stop smoking, go to the gym again and quit jacking-off.
At first I was doing good, the picture of this woman was all I needed to maintain my goal of 21 days and during the first 2 weeks I was doing great. then I started to drift, little things like waking up with a boner or being bored were "mind bullets". Porno surfing was just celebrity pictures so I was good since I don't get too aroused by them. Anyways I realized a change in my mood. mixed with running 2 miles daily and not smoking, my life was more positive in its outlook, I could talk to people more easily and had things to say. I guess I was wanting to change. I really think not jacking-off taught me that OR was not good to do on a daily basis. I was being a MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyways one the weekend of my 21st day goal I met a random woman and we did the deed, it was epic in the release, I've never experienced anything like that before, not with myself or with a woman, it was just epic. It was so strong that I felt a little uncomfortable with this woman, I felt a little distance in letting her know how I felt because she was basically a stranger, this moment of clarity came (no pun intended). I needed to find a woman (girlfriend) to share with and I now have a taste for a certain type of orgasm, the type you let build.
So truthfully I should thank this big woman for giving me the strength to find goals worth reaching. I've PMO afterwards but I see the negative aspects now as clear as day. I don't want that anymore. Like a junkie, I've got a taste for better, so now I wait, hold-out, have self-discipline and realize that the best orgasms come with a price of having a better outlook on life and a positive mindset. Not PMO's and waiting is what I do now, if I don't find a woman in 100 days so be it, I know there is a positive in that.
Hope this helps to anyone that read it.
P.S. Sorry if I offended anyone with my depiction of a fat girl but just to let you know, if I did what she did, I would have been lock-up in jail or publicly shamed. Equal rights works both ways..................