So we were having dinner and she mentioned how her friend split from her husband because he was.. get this... a porn addict. She said to me "can you believe that? How disgusting is he?" I just looked wide eyed and said "wow." She has no idea I was shocked as hell and felt like an absolute disgusting pervert in that very moment. On my way back home from her house I sat and thought about how much of a loser my mom would think I am if she knew I too, am considered a porn addict. I walked in my house and just cried and realized I'm sicker than I thought. I came to the realization that every relationship I've ever had has failed because of porn. I was never caught in all 3 of my serious relationships, but because I needed more than all my partners could give, I never was fully committed to any of them. I blame porn for this 100%. Today I realized that if my own mother truly knew who I was.. shed be absolutely ashamed of me. This makes me feel pretty shitty. I need to get this disgusting garbage removed from my life.