My 'name' is Ghost Rider Ketch, and I'm a porn addict.

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  1. Ghost Rider Ketch

    Ghost Rider Ketch Fapstronaut

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    It feels weird/shameful to me, admitting such a thing.

    Background:

    Grew up in the South, only child. Two parents and as I got older, a lot more time to myself...which led me to porn. Started at around 16, the usual stuff and it remained that way for a long time. I'm in my early 40's and now I find my tastes have been getting closer and closer to 'extremes'.

    It used to be a simple nude woman/women would be sufficient. But alas, in recent years the brain grows tired and seeks more. It ventured towards more fetish areas like bdsm, then forced roleplay...the breaking point was that I soon realized I was watching k9...and manipulating myself to it.

    I've never admitted that to ANYONE, not even (or especially) my wife.

    With the fear of my depravities getting worse (maybe not, but I don't want to test that theory), I realized I needed help. I talked to my wife and confessed (though she knew, having caught me jerking a couple times to porn) that I have an addiction. I said I wanted help and I wanted to see a group once a week. She flipped her lid, said that those people usually cheat on their spouses and anyone can quit porn with no problems.

    Took all my resolve not to yell.

    So now I'm hurt, scared, confused, and worried. No one takes me seriously when I tell them I have this problem, and that I want to stop it (or at least curb it). I realize that masturbation is a natural thing, but when you do it 2-4 times a day...then the problem is getting out of hand (no pun intended).

    There's a lot of factors, I suppose, that go into this. Didn't have sex until mid 30s, wife usually unavailable (traumatic early experiences), but it boils down to me.

    My 'name' is Ghost Rider Ketch, and this is my story. Thank you for listening.
     
  2. Hello and welcome! :)

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    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
     
  3. Jerky

    Jerky Fapstronaut

    Welcome! Glad you are here!
    Today is day 0 for me.
     
  4. Ghost Rider Ketch

    Ghost Rider Ketch Fapstronaut

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    Hopefully, the last day 0 for us both. :)
     
  5. catacombs of dreams

    catacombs of dreams New Fapstronaut

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    Very brave of you to put effort into this despite the lack of understanding from those close to you. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Do fight.
     
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  6. Jerky

    Jerky Fapstronaut

    Day 1 for me.
    Fighting the good fight along with you Brother.

    Dont lose Faith.
    Let it grow stronger each day.
    Peace and Blessings.
     
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  7. Ghost Rider Ketch

    Ghost Rider Ketch Fapstronaut

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    And by your calendar, you have two days now! :)
     
  8. Hey & Welcome to NoFap Community! :)

    You are in the right place for recovery here. We are so glad to have you with us to beat this addiction together.

    You can go read some Success Stories in the "Success Stories" section to learn more about the benefits of NoFap , get useful tips and ideas to help you in the reboot.

    If you have any question about rebooting, you can ask it in the "Rebooting" section.


    And I would recommend you to make your own journal in the "Reboot logs" corresponding to your gender & age to track your everyday progress.
    You can also join challenges in the "Events & Challenges" section, to keep yourself motivated and focused.




    You may start by checking the links below:
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    Best of luck to you in your journey!





    -The Winner
     

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