My new beginning

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by ARL1989, Nov 26, 2019.

  1. ARL1989

    ARL1989 Fapstronaut


    I am a 30 year old male from Port Elizabeth, South Africa.

    I have been struggling with porn addiction for as long as I can remember, it started as my crutch to deal with being gay and daily bullying in school.
    As time went by I eventually gave up fighting my porn addiction - (my only reason to stop was my beliefs and that it was wrong to watch porn).
    If I look back now on my relationships, I now understand why I have had the problems I had.
    I finally met the man of my dreams, the man I want to spend my life with and after 2 years of dating, my porn addiction has caught up on me and completely ruined my relationship. We are hanging on by a thread and I want to fix this problem. I don't want to lose him.
    I'm wanting to do a hard reboot of 3 months with a hope and a prayer that I can reverse the damage caused to not only myself but to the man I want to marry.
    I technically started yesterday, I haven't watched anything pornographic or masterbated.
    I hope that I can find myself and save my relationship. It's really, honestly, my goal in all this. I want a normal relationship with my soul mate.
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  2. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button | Day Counter | Rebooting Resources | Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
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  3. ARL1989

    ARL1989 Fapstronaut

    Thank you so much for the response and the resources, I am 100% dedicated to this and really want to fix myself and my relationship.
    If I've learnt anything in the last 24 hours, it's been a very repetitive problem, blaming each other, (me looking for excuses) and it's a cycle I want to and need to break.
    I am serious and I will defeat this.
    Keep well.
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  4. GK33

    GK33 Fapstronaut

    Hello and welcome!

    Thanks for sharing so openly and honestly! PMO can be really tough on a reletionship, and I hope that you two can work through it! It sucks to hear about the bullying. You'll find people of all different races, cultures, religions, genders, and sexualities here, and we all have the same goal. You are welcome here, and you now have an army to support you!

    Best of luck

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  5. ARL1989

    ARL1989 Fapstronaut

    Thanks so much for the words of encouragement, I have really zoomed out on my life and have realized I am a very ugly person due to my addiction.
    I am so moved by my actions that I almost want to jump the gun and be at the already cured point. Not that I want to skip the process, I'm just excited about a better life. Becoming a better person.
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  6. GK33

    GK33 Fapstronaut

    That's great to hear. I actually just have been having this same thought recently. Just take it one step at a time, and keep going! You'll make it!

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