My new start

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by facelift, Aug 24, 2014.

  1. facelift

    facelift Fapstronaut

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    Hi everyone, just like many of you I decided to take a fight with my addiction. I will be using this thread (now that I know how to post it) to keep updates.
    I really hope this time I will be able to breakthrough and stop masturbating completely as in my before encounters I have gave up on around day 28 when I had massive cravings.
    Wish me all good luck!
     
  2. facelift

    facelift Fapstronaut

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    Today i couldn't stop my self and i did it. I had this big urge after being angry when i lost at this video game. Its seems like anger triggers something for me that makes me want to disarm my stress through masturbation. So i am starting all over again, i need to figure out how to avoid this situation and how to deal with anger. Worse thing is i started to feel changed for better after almost a week of not masturbating.
     
  3. willme

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    All the best man. Just remember that it is an incredibly difficult task to quit masturbating and everyone struggles.

    Try to get a porn blocker and focus on doing things that will make you happy.

    In my case it is when I am around my friends and people etc.. All the best.
     
  4. facelift

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    I had problems keeping my self away from pornography and that is a huge buster to my urge. From today I have set up pornblockers and with a new job I hope I can open a new act in my life masturbation-free.
     
  5. PsycheMagician

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  6. Mr.Z

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    Speaking of videogames. I seem to remember my urges arose after an intense section of playing FPS videogames, regardless of whether I lost or won. But things get different if I play games that require thinking, like puzzles. It may be dopamine release from certain type of games, I don't know.
     
  7. facelift

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    That some very good motivation! I can use this when I am on the verge of going PMO then this can keep me on the track.

    That is very interesting, i also play FPS games and feel very similar. Its almost like all this agression drives me to PMO. What kind of thinking games do you play? I was thinking of signing up to some fighting classes to release my agression.
     
  8. facelift

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    I can not contain my self for longer than 1 week. I am so weak, I really hate that this became a habit that I can not let go off. I noticed that when I try to exercise at the gym my energy is quickly drained out, I have no vitality in myself and overall feel very weak and lack progress. It is not due to bad diet or training routine as I consulted with personal trainer and everything is on schedule. Overall I feel that I have problem with connecting with people on both emotional and verbal level. I value girls purely on their physicality not their personality and often can not find any common points of interest and quickly run out of things to talk about that lead to an awkward situation.

    Does anyone else have similar symptoms? and are these related to the masturbation addiction?
     
  9. facelift

    facelift Fapstronaut

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    And my clock resets again.
     
  10. facelift

    facelift Fapstronaut

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    and I had to cum again. I am so annoyed
     
  11. goa

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    The fact that you come back here to post after you've acted out is brilliant - a sign that you are serious about giving this up.

    No-one has said that this will be easy.

    Can I ask, what steps you have taken to try and avoid PMO?
     
  12. facelift

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    I have set up a porn blocker on my laptop and any device that has internet access.
    I have start looking for a new job, better and with prespective to grow so that it will keep my mind busy.
    I have started to going into the gym and sometimes in the morning for run.

    However I very much feel the need to masturbate every few days, its like I have big sex drive for example today and tomorrow and then almost 5 or 6 days without any urge, and then again 2 days of big drive. My guess is that my sex drive has been fucked up.
    I often find my self ending up masturbating when I am bored, and start to think of some girl or see an image of a girl dressed provocatively (with almost no cloths on).
     

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