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New Fapstronaut
Hey guys,
I started this journey mainly because of my depression and because of my unableness to have sex (ED). The last thing bothers me the most tbh, because I am 28 yo. already and even though I have been with some great girls, I could so far never in my life maintain a hard enough erection to really have sex with them. I never wanted to take V.pills, which maybe was a mistake, but well, now it's too late anyway.
I started at around 16 y. to watch P. and instead of beginning with normal sex P., I directly watched the extreme stuff (Femdom/Findom/Foot Fetish), which also scares me a bit, because normal sex has so far never really turned me on. I hope this will change by the end of this experiment. Also, I usually used to masturbate up to 5 hours daily (sometimes even longer), while watching Findom Twitter, Femdom videos or sex-roleplay-chats. The last months my "little friend" got not even really hard anymore, whenever I masturbated, which I guess kind of gave me the last wakeup call I needed. I have tried NoFap before a few years ago, but I did not take it very seriously and relapsed right after a maximum of 6 days.
I haven't set myself a day-limit, because I have no idea how long it will take me more or less to recover from this. I read guys who do this for up to 1 year, which I can't really imagine doing at this point. But I am willing to really do my best to beat this.
Day 2 without PMOing is coming to an end, even though my urges were pretty high during the day. I installed website-blockers on all potential websites, that I used to watch, which I feel really helped so far.
I will keep you guys updated. Also to hold myself accountable, if I want to relapse.
Thanks for reading, every comment/advise is appreciated. Cheers
I started this journey mainly because of my depression and because of my unableness to have sex (ED). The last thing bothers me the most tbh, because I am 28 yo. already and even though I have been with some great girls, I could so far never in my life maintain a hard enough erection to really have sex with them. I never wanted to take V.pills, which maybe was a mistake, but well, now it's too late anyway.
I started at around 16 y. to watch P. and instead of beginning with normal sex P., I directly watched the extreme stuff (Femdom/Findom/Foot Fetish), which also scares me a bit, because normal sex has so far never really turned me on. I hope this will change by the end of this experiment. Also, I usually used to masturbate up to 5 hours daily (sometimes even longer), while watching Findom Twitter, Femdom videos or sex-roleplay-chats. The last months my "little friend" got not even really hard anymore, whenever I masturbated, which I guess kind of gave me the last wakeup call I needed. I have tried NoFap before a few years ago, but I did not take it very seriously and relapsed right after a maximum of 6 days.
I haven't set myself a day-limit, because I have no idea how long it will take me more or less to recover from this. I read guys who do this for up to 1 year, which I can't really imagine doing at this point. But I am willing to really do my best to beat this.
Day 2 without PMOing is coming to an end, even though my urges were pretty high during the day. I installed website-blockers on all potential websites, that I used to watch, which I feel really helped so far.
I will keep you guys updated. Also to hold myself accountable, if I want to relapse.
Thanks for reading, every comment/advise is appreciated. Cheers