My NoFap journal

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by ClownKingZee, Jun 3, 2020.

  1. ClownKingZee

    ClownKingZee New Fapstronaut

    Hi guys. So, after trying and failing NoFap 3 times since mid-2019 within the first week (my most was 8 days) and having given up since December (I've been a huge porn and fapping addict ever since I was 13, I'm currently 18), I decided to do it once again, but this time give it my all not to relapse. Hence, why I joined the Subreddit and joined this forum.

    The reasons for which I decided to start and go for good with NoFap, are the following:
    - I have some big short/mid term goals, for which I know that self-discipline will be the deciding factor. And I believe that NoFap will help me, if I give it my best.
    - I am in a happy relationship with my girlfriend, which has been going on for over a year so far, but my addiction to porn and masturbating make me generally underperforming in bed.
    And while it made me afraid that she'll leave me, at first, she instead decided to support me and help me through my NoFap journey, by practicing abstinence along with me.

    So far, I haven't watched any porn or touched myself since June 1st, and I've completely deleted my porn folders and files from both my phone and computer, as well as unfollowing and muting all Twitter and Instagram accounts that could tempt me (I actually completely deleted my Instagram, since it contributed the most to my urges). And started working out with more intensity and consistency, as well as keeping a healthy diet. I also give more time to practicing music, which is my biggest artistic passion, as well as studying in general to prepare myself for college next September.

    And in general, right now, the urges are there, but I can easily suppress them in many different wats without much trouble. I just hope, though, that this time I manage to get past the 7 or 8 days barrier, which is when I always relapsed...

    I'll keep you all informed on my progress through this thread.


    Days 4 and 5 over: I didn't have any real urges or got any close to relapsing. I manage to keep myself busy all day, sleep early, interact with my family (and friends through the Internet), I always have the room to my door open, and I managed to block any kind of sexual content from popping on my Twitter's feed. Even though I consider deleting Twitter as a whole to make things easier.
    So far, so good. I'll keep you guys updated, and tell you if I get any urges or get close to relapsing.
    Last edited: Jun 5, 2020
  2. Igoumah

    Igoumah Fapstronaut

    Welcome to the community bro,
    Hope you a good luck on your journey !!
    Keep strong.
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  3. CaptainFranklin

    CaptainFranklin Fapstronaut

    Congrats on making it here. It is a huge step to get rid of that poisonous social media.
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  5. palindromo

    palindromo Fapstronaut

    Well done
    You will , persist, the barrier can be overcome just don't relapse over porn

    - - -
    Please, start studying carefully what's happening in your mind >

    First time without porn will be stressful , but if you resist , in some months you will feel reborn.

    If the first times a person relapse easly, it's okay.
    The streaks becomes even longer , day by day.
    Don't porn anymore, it's better to struggle and at the last to relapse than to look at porn.
    No more instagram pictures of models. No more erotic imagines , erotic stories or erotic asmr.
    If you experience ''flatline'' and low libido , resist.

    An effective weapon to overcome urges and thoughts : mindfulness.
    The brain will try to win you and to get some triggers for the seek of dopamine. Resist
  6. One Eyed Owl

    One Eyed Owl Fapstronaut

  7. ClownKingZee

    ClownKingZee New Fapstronaut

    Thank you all guys for your support! And @palindromo , thank you for your help and information!

    @Mowgli 32 I'll take part in the Matrix challenge! Thank you!
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  8. ClownKingZee

    ClownKingZee New Fapstronaut

    Little update: I decided to touch my private parts only while showering or peeing. At all other times, including in private, I keep my hands away from them. If anyone can tell me if that will help me on the long run or not so much, it'll be helpful, guys!
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  9. Hey @ClownKingZee, no problem.. you have to touch your penis to clean it & pee etc.. just no edging or physically stimulating it / getting hard (that includes sexual fantasising). Only with your gf can you use it in that way, which is the way it's meant to be.

    Good luck bro, see you in The Matrix!
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  10. Welcome to the community :) glad you could join us, if you have any questions or concerns please dont hesitate to ask, wish you all the best on your journey. Take care
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  11. ClownKingZee

    ClownKingZee New Fapstronaut

    Day 8 update:

    I always lost my previous attempts at day 8 or earlier. And with how bad the urges kick in today, I am beginning to remember why. But this time is different. I REFUSE to give in to the temptation!

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