My NoFap journey

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Kurosakichigo, Apr 18, 2019.

  1. Kurosakichigo

    Kurosakichigo Fapstronaut

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    Hi , New here.

    Started again after a long break 2 days ago (48HR) because i became aware again that i'm 24 and damn my life not even close a bit to where i want it to be and time flows by while i wasn't aware of it all this time.

    the reason is, porn and masterbation has been my Pain reliever , my escape button that let me forget about my problems whenever i feel like i can"t hold on my own, pmo relief my pain instantly but over time i learn that it came with price

    and the price was my energy, my confidence, my relationships, my friends, my future, my awareness, and my time.

    NOW i determined to start over again and quit this addiction that ruined my life - For GOOD !!!



    2 Days of Freedom and the count KEEP Going !!
     
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  2. BravelyKegger

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  3. Welcome, friend! We can do this together!
     
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  4. once you are truly determined, nothing can stop you. You need to get to the point which you constantly reminds yourself that "FK! PMO has RUINED MY LIFE! I NEED TO FIGHT IT AND BECOME A REAL WARRIOR"
     
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  5. Kurosakichigo

    Kurosakichigo Fapstronaut

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    Kurosakichigo Fapstronaut

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    Yeahh, nice to have you all.
     
  7. Kurosakichigo

    Kurosakichigo Fapstronaut

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    Got ya brother!!
    My first goal is to hit 90 days Reboot also started to look for acountbilty partners so Hit me UP fellows.
     
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  8. Kurosakichigo

    Kurosakichigo Fapstronaut

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    Day #3 UPDATE: family came to visit us, a lot of trouble maker childs and slept late last night because of them and they woke me up today also so i feel stressed from all the troubles they made and from a lack of quality sleep as well as quantity.. i guess.
    and thoughts of pmo and fantasy started flowing in to my head, probably because of the built up presure from family visit and all the trouble and noise,
    but i was able regain my awareness and suppress those thought before they made me lose control.
    KEEP going Strong !
     
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  9. md5643

    md5643 New Fapstronaut

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    I'm here to start a 90 day PM challenge with all of you guys. I've tried stopping in the past on my own, but, I just keep relapsing. I'm hoping we can all hold each other accountable and reach our collective goals.

    I'm a 22 year old male and am about to graduate college. Over the past 3 years I've had low level depression (a general feeling of sadness that isn't crippling and only arises when I'm alone). Porn has been a big stress reliever from these feelings. But, over the past year, I've started to get into more strange porn categories that fetishize feelings of low self esteem & worthlessness. 1 out of every 4 porn videos I now watch is sissy porn. I feel disgusting after I watch these videos & have started questioning my sexuality unnecessarily. I know for a fact I'm straight; but, I think I got into this genre because of the desire to feel every emotion/pleasure that is happening in sex from both male & female perspectives. Watching normal porn isn't as exciting anymore. I'm trying to catch this behavior early because I can tell it's unhealthy the way I feel after I masterbait (like absolute shit...you should be indifferent if not happy after jerking off).

    Idk if any of you guys have had any of the problems I've described above, but, if you have, just know I'm right there with you. I really need a reboot. Every time I take 1 week off I feel much better. I really want to complete the 90 days and make a complete lifestyle change. Addiction is one of the scariest things in life and I really don't want it to happen to any of us. I will try to post in this thread at least once a week. I know I need more than just myself at this point to stop wherever my porn habit is heading.
     
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  10. I can seriously relate to that, please forgive me that I once watched "furry" and "gay"(im straight tho) porn, and now when I look back, I CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME! It is pointless and wasting me time&draining my energy. I am glad I quit sooner rather than later, and I hope you too.

    why you relapse--

    Reason no.1: you are not a nofap master after merely 1 month of practice, in fact, nobody is a master in the region unless they got to 5y years+. Don't fap just be cause "well I have achieved this much, might as well just award myself with a little bit of fap". NO DUDE! A relapse on day number 1 is as bad as a relapse on day number 100! Only till you got to the level of no desire of PMO and no urges completely, you will get all the benefits.


    Reason no.2: be dead serious. This is the reason why most people fail at nofap. They are just not serious enough. When you are ready to SACRIFICE whatever to become the NEW PERSON, you will do it! But first you have to be serious about it. You need to realise the harm PMO has done to you and DO NOT WANT to become that person.



    Here are some tips for you:
    -cut all connections with PMO (triggers, images, whatever), because eventually you will get to your old place again.

    -think of something you love. If you don't sacrifice PMO, the momentary pleasure for what you love, YOUR LOVE WILL BECOME THE SACRIFICE FOR DOING PMO.


    That is all I got, hopefully you will really apply this in real life and become the person you want to be :)
     

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