My problems and getting to know this site

I recently made an account here because i just really needed some help with controlling myself, im nervous i might mess up, so if i did, please let me know where/how to actually post this

i have never even tried to tell anyone about how much porn has impacted me (in a bad way) the closest ive gotten to doing so is by constantly making furry jokes to my friends and trying to subtly tell them i dont like it

i heard confessing about all this can really help, so here i am

but basically, im a guy whos attracted to guys, mostly their butts, i would go more into detail but its unnecesary i think, i also have a few fetishes such as omorashi and farting (does this count as porn? and is it on-topic?) and also, mostly, sometimes furries, all of them, the anthro birds, the anthro dragons, etc
the reason i come to ask for help is because of how much it has impacted me and what i do, i can literally just be playing games with my sis and suddenly for a few secs my mind thinks of something like a soldier in their underwear and i get a hard on despite my best efforts to not do so, it leads to me having to stand and sit in weird ways so no one notices my erection (i feel like, despite doing my best, my mother has noticed several times) sometimes i get so much into it, that i falsely say i have to use the bathroom and masturbate in there, both because thatll get rid of it for a while and because i just suddenly really crave doing so

and the worst memory of all is when i used to masturbate in school, and not in the bathroom, literally just on the spot during class, once i even remember seeing the girls next to me look at me, i am almost 99% sure they noticed what i was doing

to end it all, even if i want to please my mind with whatever i currently want to masturbate to, i cant even find what im looking for because males arent really that sexualized in the internet(or at least for what i specifically want), and i end up going through 5 tons of other horrifying porn while looking for it, and i just stop and cry several times knowing its basically my fault im being a slave to my mind and scarring myself with such disgusting imagery while looking for what my mind specifically wants

im just tired of it, i just want it all to end, i dont wanna be masturbating to an anthro dog all the time, how can i start to control myself?

 

i didnt expect people to actually answer and try to help me, it took me a while to post this because of how afraid i was of how much i mightve messed up, so after posting this i was kind of a coward and didnt wanna see what people actually replied... im genuinely happy people here actually genuinely care

thank you so much for replying and actually reading my awkwardly scary post... and thank you so much for the advice, it really means a lot to me

 

thank you so much for the advice!
i really didnt expect people to come here and reply, it really means a lot to me that people actually cared to read this
and yeah i really confessed pretty quickly, i didnt even think of doing so, i was genuinely terrified of posting this, so when i did i kinda just closed the tab immediately, part of why i confessed like this is because its pretty much been 3 years like this, so having the chance to get some people to finally help me i guess made me make a pretty quick decision

in any case, thank you so much for replying it really means a lot to me!