Exactly the mindset you need to have. In any recovery process you will relapse. The important crucial thing is that you LEARN exactly why you relapse and prevent it. Start mornings off by working out and doing chores, etc. . . Get your work done. Work during the day, at night, stay away from videogames. Find outlets to destress. I LOVE reading. Turn on a record player (somethin nice about physical music rather than from an ipod or somethin, know what I mean?) make yourself a cup of tea or coffee, snack, whatever, and just read. I have 3 books I'm reading through right now, one of em's a recovery book. I'd recommend sitting down and writing down your goals. Visualize where you want to be 3 years from now, Ideally. Then sit down and break down your 1 year, 6, 3, 1 month and weekly goals. Go after them aggressively and relentlessly. Reward yourself when you hit your goals. Find things that will TAKE UP YOUR TIME. Learn to play an instrument. I'm learning bass. Full time schooling combined with being involved in campus life, plus trying to read 3 books, practice music and hang out with friends: 0 free time. And you're too tired to relapse tbh. It's really about preventative maintenance when it comes to stress. Daily stress management will make sure you don't become overwhelmed. If you're in school, make it a goal to be 2 days or a week ahead on your schoolwork. Will take a huge load of stress of your shoulders. Write it down and put it somewhere and go over it every day. It becomes tangible. Get the book breaking the cycle. Seriously. When it comes to major stressors (life crisis, something you can't fix in the moment), realize it, shut down all your electronics, and let someone know what you're going through. Put up extra precautions during that time until you're back to normal. Here's something I realized during my last relapse. I was super stressed, KNEW I was in a moment of weakness, and thought to myself, "I'll just let myself be in this moment of weakness, sit through it, and be stronger by resisting it". Wrong thinking. True that you become stronger when you don't give in, but it shouldn't be something of pride to PUSH through it. If you're in a moment of stress or weakness, REALIZE THAT YOU CAN AND WILL RELAPSE if you sit in it. Promise yourself that if you're in a moment of weakness you'll reach out as soon as you realize it. Set down your pride and be the bigger man by admitting you're weak. And when you reach out and get help, and DON'T relapse because you're accountable to someone, because you've prevented it, you become stronger. Love and blessings friend. Keep it up.
