It feels as if I've made Hundreds of these posts but now, I'm sure this is my last one. My last 2 posts where about being addicted to shemales and and the guilt and shame of sending nudes. Well todays post is about both. I got up today at 9:30 and everything was going good. I don't know what got into me but i just decided to go Masturbate to trans porn. So thats what i did for about 3 hours, Edging and all. But in my binge i did something not so good. I went onto a shemale subreddit and found a trans who was accepting PM. We talked for a bit and a little later i sent her a Dick Pic. I know it was very stupid of me, i deleted it a minute after and blocked her. Didn't post a face pick so my identity wouldn't be know. So no harm really done in that sense but seeing as how i said yesterday i wasn't going to send a nude ever again. well looks like i failed. A couple mins go by and then i blow my load after edging for 3 hours and it gets all over me. My pants, underwear, shirt even my face. i was full of disgust and right there and then i deleted all the porn i had on my tablet and vowed to delete every last bit of porn i had. I soon after took a shower and now here i am. Many of you guys have gave me advice on things to do when i get urges but I've never used your advice. But From now on I'm going to start doing it. Exercising, Meditating, adding porn blockers to all my devices. After almost a year I'm finally fed up with Porn and want it all gone. I will never post a relapse story again because i will not relapse again. Thats it I'm done. I will tell myself that i am a good person i just make stupid decisions. Oh well thats life i guess. I encourage you guys to seriously take the advice of others on here if will help you very much. As for me my journey starts Here.