My sexual repression

Goodnight. I am from Latinoamerica. I am a man who started my addiction to pornography at 11 years old. I started to masturbate only on weekends, but over time I turned addiction into habit. Every night before going to sleep, I masturbated to calm down. Every day, one masturbation a day 365 days a year.

I realized that I lost my sensitivity to the moment of intercourse with women. I have not felt the same pleasure with a vagina as with my hand. My first time I could penetrate but never ejaculate. My second and third time I could not penetrate my penis in my partners, which has been frustrating with them to the point that I feel they make fun of me. This frustration has led me to become depressed. I study medicine and it is a career where you have to handle stress very well. So it has not been easy to contain myself.

It is difficult for me to find a partner and I feel sad about that. For me women have a very difficult ego that does not allow me to address them. I feel that they feel more powerful than me, and therefore I do not bother to interact with them. But deep down I feel very sad and lonely. I do not know what to do to find someone in a society of many egos.

Excuse my english. You can write your answers in English and Spanish if you can. Thank you for reading.

 

Thanks, I will put all my potential.

 

No, soy de un lado inédito de Colombia donde existen mujeres muy hermosas pero egocéntricas hasta más no poder. Pienso que creen tener un gran poder por esa característica física y ni te voltean a ver. No soy nada misógino pero creo que ellas no tienen coherencia. Un saludo.