My story 15yr old lad recovered from porn addiction

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  1. Matty007

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    Firstly to start off with I'm a 15 year old lad from North England, so hello to many foreigners but this is my success story and how I got over porn addiction. (Sorry if it's long). So where do I begin discovered porn at a very very young age on YouTube and u might think YouTube doesn't have porn on it and oh it does trust me, I first started watching stuff like people sexually kissing and it slowly turned into an obsession and addiction everytime I was on a computer when I was younger about 7 or younger I'd be watching these videos to get the pleasure out of it but still hadn't discovered masturbation yet so a couple years doing that and then suddenly discovering the main porn the real porn the websites I remember seeing the first video at about 10 and I was hooked straight away with it but still hadnt discovered masturbation yet. I kept watching porn all the time no stop it was affecting my normal life at 10 years old for **** sake it just shows how much it can affect you and kill you, but then I remember finally discovering it and then I linked the two to porn and bang the addiction was at the all time high I started watching it even more masturbating to it around 3 to 4 times everyday even more sometimes and it quickly escalated into more extreme things ie- stuff out of my own sexuality (which I developed HOCD), gangbangs and all that messed up stuff, porn induced fetishes, messed up stuff but didn't like it just to watch and see how angin it was but all a result of porn addiction. It became even worse when I noticed myself only being happy with going to my bedroom and watching porn, it all carried on tho till Easter 2017 it all suddenly hit me I felt the guilt, the shame, the extreme depression, the lazziness, the suicidal thoughts I literally remember some days around Easter all I could think of for whole days was ways to end my own life I was so depressed and unhappy. I was lost didn't know what was happening to me, felt like I didn't know who I was, I need to find an answer I searched on the internet for days to find what was up with me and I remember finding NoFap and it all made sense tbh and like it's gonna start to get cringey here but I met the love of my life while I was on my journey and I can honestly say she helped me through it she got me through it all I don't know what I'd do without her like we was going out for about 3 or 4 months and I came clean and told her it all and like honestly the amount of girls that would of just left and not helped me are like literally every girl and nope my girl stayed and helped me through it and that's why she's gonna be by my side for the rest of my life like I was nearly there I told relapsed so many times it's uncountable like I just told myself one day that I'm the one in control and I wasn't going to watch it in my life agsin and obviously my girlfriend helped me get that final push in and it worked I started doing 10 days then 20, 30, 40 by the time u know it I hint the 90 days and I felt like a new person I completely felt the reboot my girl asked me all the time what day I was on and i remember telling her I hit 90 days we was both over the moon I had made it and she always picked me up every step of the way and now I'm on day 159 and rising and everyday I look back on it and feel amazing the fact I got over it and I wouldnt of done it without my girl I just want to post this and let someone read this and think they can do it but thankyou for reading I hope u enjoyed and it gave u some motivation
    Matt
     
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  2. Congratulations but just for future use you should learn to use periods and also paragraphs help because it can be very hard to read peoples stories when they are written in this format but hey thats just my opinion but honestly I am very happy for you thats great that you are doing well and I hope you keep up the great work but yeah maybe next time for future use just use more punctuation and try to refrain from the run on sentences because it can be very hard to read for others but not trying to be mean just helping you out keep up the good work and god bless
     
  3. Oxford Clay

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    'one equally huge run-on sentence'!
     
  4. Um, that was the joke.

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  5. Oxford Clay

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    I Like You the joke.jpg
     
  6. Little kitty

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    Thanks bro. . .lets fight this problem together
     
  7. Icyweb

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    That's great to hear. Many people carry this addiction for year and even decades after they realize it's a problem, but you got it really early on. If I can add a little advice for moving forward, be careful of other addictions, particularly sex addiction, but alcohol and other drugs can be an issue too. Tendency toward addiction is often a genetic thing, so you will need to be careful not to go overboard on other stuff as you get older. But other than that, congratulations! you're going to be a lot happier without this hanging over your head.
     
  8. Cobra

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    It's really great you beat this addiction at your age! I'm happy for you.
     

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