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My story, and my problems.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by RedPhoenix93, Aug 13, 2020.

  1. RedPhoenix93

    RedPhoenix93 Fapstronaut

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    Hello guys.
    I have been PMOing since 14 years, sometimes it was daily sometimes 2 or 3 days a week, I was just sitting for few minutes in the beginning, and it raised to 1 hour by the time, I don't remember exactly how I entered PMO. But I know it hitted me so bad, I have been trying alot of ways to quit it, alot of promises and guess what, I always fall again, lately it's hitting me alot, I am 27 years old single, virgin, and due to relegion beliefs which I trust with closed eyes I can only have sex with my wife. Means it is forbidden. And as you all know around us there is alot of temptations, in my work every girl is dressed with mini skirts and shirts with deep cleavage, I have no idea why and what makes them wear those kind of clothes, and as you can imagine it is really bad for the reboot, I have been trying alot, it can't help, I can't move my eyes away from them, sometimes I don't even care if one of them sees me looking at her. It feels like I have lost control over myself, I was able to control.myself before and I didn't give a shit about any girl who passed by me or sitting infront of me, but by time it changed, I worked in supermarket at my early age,and it started from there, lots of girls visiting the supermarket, many girls with short clothes and I was chasing them with my eyes here and there... I went crazy one day cause of a woman walked in the market with no bra and a very deep cleavage, I was after her in every corner to see her, till she left, and no she didn't notice me... after she left I felt like I need more, my body was shaking, I lost control over myself and was searching for another one, but guess what I couldn't find, even those who was wearing short clothes didn't satisfy me, so I went to the restroom and what happened after is history...
    From there I knew that I am in a dangerous place, I don't want anyone to look at my sister or any member of my family the way I did, I tried to stop that habbit and it worked for few weeks but it went back. Every time I see a girl dressed with minimal clothes I scan her from her head to her toes... I know it is bad, very bad, and I am working on it lately and I am noticing some changes. Now I am focusing more on PMO, I am in my 2nd day now.
    for some months now my PMO decreased by 30%, it is huge different now but I still use it, my longest streak was 21 days 3 months ago, and from then I can only go from 3 days to a week. I sit on a sofa and without feeling I start browsing P, it looks like my brain has been designed to do that automatic, I have been noticing lately that I am finding it hard to write something, for example right now, this thread is taking me some good time to write, even my english went bad, I can't find words and I am finding it hard to complete a sentence, I used to have a good thoughts alot of imagination alot of fantasies, but now it feels like my brain has stopped working, alot of brain fog bad memory, less activity. And alot of bad things... my question is. can NoFap cure this? I don't want anything but a clear mind, a healthy brain like before, which steps should I do? Is there any way to reduce the horniness by food or drinks? By the way I am addicted to P by 61% according to an exam.
    I appreciate every one whose gonna read this and I am gonna accept every reply.
    Stay healthy guys.
    NoFap for better life.
     
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    RedPhoenix93 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you sir, I appreciate your reply, may god forgive us all, the demon knew how to control us and to make us his slaves.
    Thanks for the reply.
     
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