I've been struggling with anxiety and depression ever since I started fapping. In 2013 I was so sick with adrenal fatigue that I would drop in my bead sleeping right after coming home from work so I often had early dinner at my workplace. Thing is I've just come to realise that the reason why my depression/anxiety both lifted back in 2013 is I just did not PMO. I was literally back to my childhood, my brain was back to its former, happy-go-lucky, natural state. It was so wonderful. I was positive and IDGAF again, but not in a negative/jerky way, I was nice to people, but on cloud 9. Like little kids feel, or at least I felt as a kid - everything was so exciting again. Even the dirtiest city streets seemed lovely, but that might be my former personality as I was a happy, bubbly kid pre-fap. Sure I relapsed a couple of times in the toilet at work but it seemed to not affect me that bad as I've gone NoFap for several months before that. When I quit my job and I went back to uni I had more time and I did not get so tired so I had more time to wank. I call it my "miracle of 2013", so I really miss that year as life felt like it did in the 1990s before I started PMO. Panic attacks suddenly went away and I could even stand criticism from my supervisor like a boss lol. Not surprisingly my life is hell again from 2014. I did everything the same way I did it back then - going to sleep early, eating healthy, avoiding stress, meditation, supplements and vitamins. But it seems NoFap was the secret ingredient that matters the most as I couldn't replicate that heavenly feeling of being truly ALIVE. What I know is that a week is not enough for me. From tomorrow I'm restarting NoFap again. Not sure if some guys are affected more than others, I guess I'm born with weak adrenals or smth, as I know guys that climax very often, yet they still get girls and are happy. When I do PMO, I'm unhappy, depressed and turn invisible to girls. Guys also avoid me and refuse to be my friends. But oh god how I miss 2013 and the 90's, really going to try harder.