I am a 26 years old guy with epilepsy since I was 12. Regarding PMO, I started in that world at 14. My life has not been easy, at all. Absence seizures, unemployment, problems with girls, worries about seizures, loneliness, dependence, social anxiety. Since October 2018, I have noticed that I suffer from dizziness and all related (forgetfulness, etc) but I am not sure if it is because of anticonvulsant drugs side effects or excessive fap. I must admit I have abused and spent hours in my laptop watching and chatting with webcam girls, ladies who I have hang out with many times. This cycle seems not to have and end, because every time I do not have occupations I visit webcam models and fap. For now, it has not been possible to me to get a job despite I graduated from university in 2016 (I forget things, etc).. I don't know if this frustration issue makes me visit Chaturbate 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. This is my second day without fapping, despite I have sexual thoughts in parts of the day (both with girls and men, despite I am straight, maybe this has to do with my activity as a Chaturbate broadcaster). Right now,I feel big urges to touch myself, but tomorrow I have a soccer match and I want to do it well. My question is... What will I do on Monday? When I am at home alone with no commitments? Fapping feels good, but when I am done, I get full of bad sensations and I think this consumes my life. I really need your words, your advice.