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my story..Please help

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by neew_guy, Jun 18, 2015.

  1. neew_guy

    neew_guy Fapstronaut

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    I would like to share my story..I am 22, male..and I have been masturbating since 14 and watching porn since 17..and I am a masochist (one who derives pleasure from pain-50 shades of grey kind) since maybe 8-9 (like I loved it when my female teachers used to spank me)..i know-messed up but I was born this way I guess..anyway so ever since I started masturbating, my fantasies were all based on being a submissive-getting dominated by a girl-bondage, spanking and what not..and I used to masturbate usually to only these fantasies..so obviously when I started watching p I watched mostly female domination p, sometimes vanilla, but it didnt give me the same pleasure..now 7 months ago I got hocd (where one gets intrusive thoughts and fear that he might be gay even when he knows he is straight) which I believe is porn induced-coz my porn kind of escalated from female domination handjob porn to strapon porn (woman penetrating man) and my hocd is really severe now..it has been 7 months of hell..I used to watch porn/masturbate w/o porn like everyday for like a year ..so to beat this hocd i decided to take up the 90 days NoFap challenge hard mode..i am on day 9 now..and surprisingly i have very little urges to watch porn/masturbate for these 9 days..which is making me anxious and my hocd strong and this also makes me think if i was really addicted to porn or not in the first place and if my hocd was even porn induced or not..u see i want my hocd to be porn induced so that i would like to believe that after i complete this challenge i would be hocd free..however hocd has hampered my libido really bad too..not easy to get aroused when u have so many intrusive thoughts in ur mind, so maybe thats why I dont get the urges..
    anyway my point is-how many days does it take to have those urges or like the withdrawal symptoms of porn abstinence? ?
     
  2. Gilbert

    Gilbert Fapstronaut

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    Sounds like you've had some serious struggles, but 9 nines is impressive considering how long you've struggled for.

    All I can recommend is to keep posting here, and try and replace your PMO habits with good ones (exercise/study etcetc) and you should start noticing the benefits any day now.

    Everyone is different - I struggle with urges most days truthfully, some last for a couple weeks fine and then face them, other people find the first days the hardest then easier after that. Try and read around the forums and post as regularly as you can - there are a lot of wise people here who can offer you more advice.

    Best of luck, and don't give up!
     
  3. neew_guy

    neew_guy Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for ur reply..I will keep posting and be here and hopefully complete my 90 days challenge
     
  4. Gilbert

    Gilbert Fapstronaut

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    Ahah I meant 9 days not 9 nines whoops dunno what happened their.

    You're welcome, and woo awesome
     

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