My story: starting a reboot TODAY and a few questions

Hi, I'm new here. Well, not exactly new, I already knew this place and visited it months ago, but I didn't had the strength to sign up, open an account and going for it.

Let's say I've been watching porn since I was 12, more or less. In less than one month I'm turning 20 and I really want to stop PMO.
A big issue and the main reason why I want to is that lately my preference for Pornography is getting out of hands. I think that I've been watching transgender porn for 2 years now (even more, I can't even remember). But with different periods of time. Sometimes a week is loaded of ts PMO, then I feel horrible and stop for 2 weeks but then I fall again, first watching softcore, then traditional P and finally that weird stuff my brain likes and I don't really understand why. I usually PMO once a day, so I guess I'm addicted.

I really need help and I think that the best thing I could do is to share my story here and start rebooting myself.

Added to this issue, another reason why I need to really drop out P is my girlfriend. I've been dating her since 1 year ago and I want to become a better person for her. I feel that doing PMO is like betraying her again and again, and also betraying myself and my sexual orientation. I know I only feel attracted to women but somehow ended up watching that trash and masturbating to it.

She doesn't deserve this. Luckily we have no problems with our sexual life, and I need to keep it as it is going. That's also why I must stop PMO. I was going to start next year, but I told myself it was enough when I failed again (an hour ago) and PMO with that crap, and we had sex yesterday...

I have a few questions:
- Is Sex allowed in the reboot(with my gf oc)?
-Any advice for my specific problem (sexual orientation)?

I'm motivated and by posting this I know I have reached a point of no return. I'll post every Sunday an update of how I'm doing. Also I'm here to learn and support other people who want to improve their lives like me.

Thank you very much for reading and see you on the forums!

P.D. English is not my native language, sorry if I didn't really explain myself well.

 

Well, I didn't tell her and I think that I don't need to. The thing is that I masturbate as a routine, not as if my body wanted it and If I didn't do it I would feel anxious or something. Also I'm not thinking all the time about pornography, it's just that my body is used to ejaculate every day and I want to stop it for my health, physical and mental.(as porn is very bad for the brain, I mean)

As I said I already had periods of abstinence, even for 1 month, but I end up failing again and again. But now with this forum I feel more committed and expecting to succeed.

In my opinion I'm not that deep into addiction, that's why I want to stop asap to avoid REAL addiction that affect my life.


Thank you by the way!