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My story Wy200

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Wy200, Aug 14, 2018.

  1. Wy200

    Wy200 New Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys
    I’m new here, but keen to hopefully put a long period of rebooting behind me!

    I’ve been PMO’ing since a very young age (one of the problems of the availability of the internet to really young boys) — around about 13. I’m now 20 nearly 21, and have pretty much consistently in the intervening 7 year period been masturbating, mostly to porn, around once a day. For a long time I just didn’t think about it as a negative thing. It was part of a daily routine, there were no observable negative effects, and I enjoyed it, so no harm done, right?

    I do remember thinking around 16/7 that perhaps it was getting out of hand. Going for stretches of months at an end PMO’ing twice a day. But I explained it away saying that I had naturally high testosterone levels, and a high libido, so it was fine.

    However recently, due in part to other circumstances, I’ve really really noticed a link between PMO and anxiety. Almost every time I PMO, I tend to get very caught up in something later in the day, something that erodes me and fixes me in worry. Looking back now, I remember that after masturbating a number in a day I’d get very jittery and have this sort of energy inside me that would only be dissipated by like roaring aloud -(almost tourettic???). Almost certainly a progression of this.

    I’ve never had problems with ED, or sexual excitement with real women, and I’m lucky enough to be in a fantastic relationship with a wonderful girl.

    But I honestly think rebooting could make me a more balanced, healthier and happier man, and hopefully help me get rid of a really significant, dark presence in my character (if you know what I mean).

    So I think I’m gonna start fairly gradual, maybe with the monthly challenges, or maybe go straight for the 90 days. I’ve tried to stop before, but man oh man, maybe because I’ve gone through puberty with it, but it’s SOOO hard. I get completely consumed with addiction. The panic button is going to be so important.

    Anyone else have any advice/ thoughts/ similar stories?
     
  2. TheManDude

    TheManDude Fapstronaut

    Welcome man, you're story is very similar to a lot of us here and yeah porn can fuck you up real bad mentally with time in not just with anxiety but depresion, lost of self confidence, lack of motivation among many other things... so yes you're making the right choice to quit it.

    My advice: keep yourself involve with the NoFap community and pick all the info you can, the support that some people can give you around here it's just incredible. Also don't give up, mistakes will be made and you'll probably have some restarts but the important thing to quit is consistency.

    Hope that helps and good luck!
     
  3. bootstrap

    bootstrap Fapstronaut

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    Like yourself I am totally new here, I literally just signed up. My long term addition to PMO is not something that I have ever discussed with anyone before and this is a brand new experience for me too. I had heard about this site and even read a few pages from it, but never had the strength to join up. I guess that is strangely all in the past now. Knowing that we who struggle are not alone has already helped me to get through just one more extra-tempting and difficult day today. My current streak is still a short one, especially when I compare it to some of the epic number of days that I have seen for some members here. By comparison for me, my pitiful number is actually up there with some personal bests!

    What I really wanted to say is that I amazed to finally be noticing the benefits of rebooting more clearly now than I have ever done so before, and that your expectation of "a more balanced, healthier and happier man, and hopefully help me get rid of a really significant, dark presence in my character (if you know what I mean)" is something that I am just beginning to appreciate.

    Personally 90 days seems like a scary prospect at the moment. I can only focus on one day at a time. I wish you the best in your efforts
     
  4. Wy200

    Wy200 New Fapstronaut

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    Would you be up for a partnership - like a competition between us?
     

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