MY STORY

I make a premise, I am a boy who since childhood has never had a great success with girls, this until adolescence. Around the age of 19 I had my first girlfriend, with whom I had difficulty in having the first sexual relationship (I took a year !!!!) in my mind I already had strange sexual fantasies that I honestly still do not know how they can have originated, or what was the triggering event (which I do not describe too much to avoid bringing to my mind at this time, but we mainly talk about fetish fantasies)

After leaving with this girl I started to play for Latin American courses to meet new girls, here I met a girl who then turns out to be one of the biggest disappointments I've ever had.

This girls was very pretty, we were young at the time we were 23, I had say the classic lightning stroke. From the beginning this girl immediately manifested intentions of friendship only, but for my stubbornness we went on to attend until one day she says she never wanted to see me again, thus cutting every contact with me. I find out that she is engaged.


I start to take refuge in the PMO with my sexual fantasies, looking for pornographic material on the Internet, even in the workplace. I'm also discovered by colleagues and the boss, as the computer takes viruses that force me to call a repair technician.


I thought they were momentary fantasies but in reality I was opening up a world that I did not know yet and that I would soon discover.


Years go by, I kept watching pornography more and more Hard both at home and at work, sometimes I was dating some girl, but erectile dysfunction problems occurred regularly, because I could never have a complete relationship.


This caused me a strong sense of anguish and impotence.

Browsing the internet I then accidentally discovered a site that the reason for my erectile dysfunction could be due to the vision of too much pornographic material so decided (December 2017) to try to stop.


I managed to stop watching pornography for about 2 months without masturbating, after some time I decided that I would only watch videos without masturbating. Obviously after a few weeks I started to masturbate and I fell back into the PMO. A few months later I decided to try again aware of the fact that this time I do not have to look at pornography, as it will certainly trigger the desire to masturbate


If you have read my story, do you have any advice?

 

thanks for the support and your advice!

 

SOME TIMES I THINK ABOUT HOW MY LIFE WAS BETTER WITHOUT PORN

 

It was better..I want to stop forever

 

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