angelasmith267
Fapstronaut
I have had a porn addiction since I was 12. It all started when I found the late night section on HBO. At first I watched it at random when I had the chance for a few years. I could still masturbate on my own without it. But then when I learned I could use it as a stimulant a few years later, I began to rely on it unknowingly. I grew up in a Christian home, and at the time I felt extremely guilty because of that. I thought it was a sin to explore sex on my own, masturbate, and watch porn. Eventually however, my faith changed. **I stopped identifying as a Christian in high school. I stopped thinking porn was bad for a minute from a Christian standpoint, but eventually I became numb to sexual images, and began searching for more extreme things. Things I promised myself I would never ever watch. I started to realize I was addicted at age 19 when I couldn’t bring myself to stop. I tried to search how to quit porn, but a lot of the articles focus on men and their experience with porn. A lot of them didn’t align with my experience as a woman. So I began to search women addicted to porn and how to overcome it. Unfortunately, a lot of the forums or articles for women mainly talk about porn addiction with religion being a large influence in the discussion. The articles usually have talking points along the lines of: It’s a sin, you aren’t serving God, you aren’t serving your husband, If you want to be closer to God, yadayadayada. It simply didn’t resonate with me. It’s distracting, and the advice is a mixture of fear mongering and some hocus pocus. I just wanted to know if there were any women out there who actually have practical advice on how to overcome porn addiction without bringing up religion. I have been clean for a month but I am feeling tempted today. I just want to know I’m not alone here. I know for a fact that there are so many women who watch porn, and who are addicted but are too ashamed to talk about it. I hope this can be a safe space for me to kick this habit.