My streaks are shorter

Hello,

I'm here long time, but I had good reason to do this challenge - girls (yeah, hate me). Now, I'm having conact with womans every day so it worked out! I don't have an aim now. For some time I see that my streaks are shorter and shorter. When half a year ago I had 2 weeks streak, now they are kind of 3-4 days. It's harder and harder. I'm 3 years on this challenge. Would appreciate some thoughts that will change my mind.

Greetings.

 

Don't worry about others hating on your reason to take up the challenge, it's one of the reasons why I'm doing it as well. I'll admit I've never had a girlfriend and I fully 100% blame using pmo as a crutch and medicine to my social problems. My end goal is to become a more rounded person, to stop medicating myself with quick fixes and to live the life I was meant to live, which, yes, as a single male means going on dates with real live girls.

Of course it's hard when we've told ourselves for years that not only is it okay to do, but that it becomes unnatural to not do it, thus why we have the withdrawal symptoms and why you see so many people fail many times before getting on long streaks. But one thing I always tell myself, especially after I just ran a marathon, is that anything in life that is worth achieving is worth fighting for and shouldn't be something that is easily attainable. Using pmo as an example of something that is a quick and easy fix to our problems can help strengthen your resolve to no longer give into the easy rewarding behaviors and to focus more on things that fulfill you. I know for one that being able to connect with another human being is far more appealing than starring at a screen for hours on end, only to feel guilty about it afterwards.

 

Hello,

Thank you for all your responses.

That last sentence got into my mind: "I know for one that being able to connect with another human being is far more appealing than starring at a screen for hours on end, only to feel guilty about it afterwards". Yeah. I'm an IT outsource worker, so I'm traveling a lot in my city. Seeing couples late on the friday night is very painful for me. I know I'm capable of getting girlfriend, but something is blocking me. I didn't even had one in my whole life. Girls are telling me "Damn, you are so attractive and fun" which gives me a boost on confidence, but I can't find courage to ask her out. Like it's not my style. I don't know what to do.

I have dreams like making a lot of cash by my work. I like what I'm doing right now. I had aim to have sex with girls, but after first intercourse (it was bad), I changed it to have many woman friends aaaand people I have contact every day are like 80% woman, so I got good job and my goal came true. Afterwards, I'm just here wandering to find some goal to do this challenge to 90 days. Yeah, in 3 years I haven't accomplished reboot. I got 50 days, but 90 is my goal now. I think I need an "excuse" to do this 90days challenge. But what should be this excuse?

I hate my addiction. It's like sticking a needle under a nail (ouch!) every time I relapse. I accept it that I'm addicted to porn and masturbation. I want to get rid of this problem. I will look on my life and myself in coming days. I need to find my goal by myself, so I will truly achieve these 90 days clean.
I have my own journal on my own program written in C#. It's kind of cool
I don't want to analyse past relapses. I know which triggers me the most - reddit. I think I need to get rid of it too.
I'm trying to be active, but you see - it's hard to get to PC after sitting 8 hours before it in work. But, I will try.
Thank you for what you bring to my life - wisdom.

Yeah! On the few days later I thought about it how often I was fapping (before challenge it was 3 times a day!). If I would fap now, it would be once a week, so calculate it:
3 x 365 days = 1095 faps per year. It's crazy!
365days/7(one week) = ~52
It's a reduction in 3 years from almost 1100 faps a year to 52. It's a damn good job. But I want to reduce it to zero.
Thank you for your link - I will read it immediately.

It's kind of habit - doing this challenge. I'm not even think of failure, I want to do it one more time. I don't have special purpose, but only get 90 days.
50 days are my record. It was during previous year. I don't know how I have done it, but I have diary for back there and I'm trying to find a key to success from there. I will try to look on the other diarys (I have like 20 of them) on my PC and try to find a key. Maybe on the diary of other NoFappers.

Thank you again for all your responses. These gives me hope to get on the horse.