My struggle

Hi brothers
Before I begin I just want you all to know that I live you all and you guys are awesome. From the bottom of my heart I wish that all of you get over this habit and be free. I believe before I begin I should properly introduce myself so that you could connect or disconnect better. So I am an Indian guy and 19 years of age and belong to an average family. Now let's get started I was in 9th standard when I first masturbated. I slowly got hooked to the habit and started masturbating everyday when I was in 10th standard. I had insomnia problems and switched to dummy school when I was in 11th which meant that I just had to go to school to give exams. I still think that had I fought against my insomnia and not switched to a dummy school I wouldn't have had this habit. Anyway once I got into dummy school I got lonelier and my brother whom u shared a room with went abroad to study. I started masturbating a lot and eventually I started getting acne. At first I thought it was puberty but soon I realised that it was masturbation that was the culprit. I tried to stop and at time I got involved in computer gaming but it was just an exchange of addiction. My acne further accelerated my loneliness. I threw away a relationship due to that as well, just to remain free from urges I broke up with my girlfriend without any reason. Anyway the whole time I didn't study and didn't get into a good college. I dropped a year but my addiction continued. There were times when I was sober for 1-2 weeks but only to relapse hard. Anyway last year I got into a good college somehow. I have since improved a lot and won 12 debating competition this year(not bragging something I just proud of) and did exceptionally well in academics. But I am still not over this habit. I get wet dreams often
and they give me acne as well and break my spirit. I want a clear face and that's the main reason I am doing it. I also keep relaxing for two other reason which is extreme loneliness and the whole idea that right now is the time I could be sexually active. I also wonder how could I in a relationship when the whole idea of getting physical reminds me of acne. If somebody knows a cure for this type of acne comments are appreciated. I relapsed after a week I joined NoFap and then again after 5 days. Today was the first day again and I might get some action on Skype . Help me decide what to do I want to refrain from it but at the same time there is a voice in the back of my head saying that I should go ahead with it. It's hard to convince myself that it would be painful later.