My thoughts after a year trying NoFap

First of all, my situation. I'm 63 and I have lived with my girlfriend for the last 14 years. Due to her ongoing health issues she is completely non-sexual. Which I have learned to live with. I have been tempted many times to cheat on her, but never have. I do love to flirt with women, however. When it gets to that point, I always tell them I'm in a relationship. But on to my NoFap story. Over the years, i did PMO on a regular basis. Since NoFap I have attempted different streaks of no P, no M, and no O with varying levels of success. For me personally: I can go a long time without orgasming. I'm currently at 51 days. I can avoid porn, although once in awhile I give in. Masturbating on it's own is the tricky one for me. Hard to go more than a few days.
The way I see masturbation (for myself) - 1.We are sexual creatures, 2. I don't have a sexual partner, 3. Tantric M without O builds energy which I use in other areas of my life. 4. Semen retention makes me feel stronger and more confident. I used porn a couple days ago and what that did was made my mind race and I was unable to relax. For me porn just lights up my mind, and kicks up the anxiety. Also, in my case I do love seeing beautiful women on porn sites, but then it can get so gross with every conceivable sex act imaginable. It can get very sick. So, in my case, masturbating without porn or orgasm might be the best way for me to go. Just my thoughts.

 

Well, I do everything I can to stay young. Exercise (weights, cardio, stretching), basically no sugar or carbs, eat one meal a day, take online courses. Your comment made me feel good, so thank you.

 

Isn't he a wrestler from back in the day? No, I'm not jacked or anything, but I do use weights on a consistent basis just to stay strong. I really don't know what he looks like.

 

I understand. I guess for me, masturbation creates sexual energy which I use in other areas of my life. As long as I personally keep the semen in my system, I feel I will remain strong.