My Thoughts before & after fap

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Imtrying

Fapstronaut
This is what's crazy. I can be fine & not thinking about it & something triggers it. This past time I received an email from someone wondering why I wasn't on messenger. I added messenger back & eventually we were having another filthy chat. I'm enjoying it & then immediately after.... I want no part of her. Same thing when I looked at porn. Minute I was done, I had no interest in seeing porn again. It's such a dramatic shift in personality. It always amazes me.
 
Just read you post, I have had a lot of times where I will have several videos up on my computer and want to eventually see all of them. I will see clips here and there continually clicking and pausing them looking at the next one while the others load. Clicking through the tabs until I eventually finish and as soon as I do, any of the videos that I have up still I have no desire to finish.
 
I know how you feel bro.

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I always think how easy it would be if I could skip steps & feel the way I do after. I can't even imagine looking at porn after.
 
nitsuj0786 said:
You don't feel good and it is hours later. You wasted tons of time and are back to zero. Typing comments is helping me at this moment, urges are really high. Does anyone on here know how to put a goal on here?
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Just click on anyone's counter and set yours then choose customize counter settings and type a goal.
 
We all feel that brother. My urges have been real bad this week. As much as I hate doing it I couldn't resist looking up the bikini model I am obsessed with. why? Because it feels awesome in the moment. I'm fighting the urge right now to keep from checking out her Twitter feed. I haven't relapsed to her but I'm still gettign that awesome dopamine blast to the head every time.
 
Stay strong, what are the pros and cons of looking her up. You look but don't edge, ok edge but don't finish, whoops. And you are back at day zero feel like crap. And once you are at day zero it is hard to get back on track again. At least that has been my experience.
 
I'd started a new streak. Was on day 3. Went to bed early & decided to see if any of the women I used to chat with was online. A few were but they were going to bed. Finally found one & engaged in some filthy talk. So so stupid. It feels good to write that. Just so very stupid. I wouldn't meet this woman for anything but I use her & others for this crap! I hate that. I'm doing better with not watching porn but chatting is still an issue.

Literally it's like turning off the lights. A few minutes ago I was so into it. Now I can't understand how I slipped up. I'll do better tomorrow but what a waste!
 
Imtrying said:
I'd started a new streak. Was on day 3. Went to bed early & decided to see if any of the women I used to chat with was online. A few were but they were going to bed. Finally found one & engaged in some filthy talk. So so stupid. It feels good to write that. Just so very stupid. I wouldn't meet this woman for anything but I use her & others for this crap! I hate that. I'm doing better with not watching porn but chatting is still an issue.

Literally it's like turning off the lights. A few minutes ago I was so into it. Now I can't understand how I slipped up. I'll do better tomorrow but what a waste!
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  1. Delete the chat software.
  2. Read step 1.
  3. Just because you relapsed doesn't mean the day is a waste and you have an excuse to binge. Jump back onto that NoFap Rocket
Stay strong.
 
In my last relapse, few days ago, i wach just P without of M and O. And now i'm broken but not like when i praktice pmo. So, from today i will start to use "idiot" phone without of internet. I live with my parents and they have pasword on our lap top, so, i think thats is my finaly stryggle!
 
nitsuj0786 said:
You don't feel good and it is hours later. You wasted tons of time and are back to zero. Typing comments is helping me at this moment, urges are really high. Does anyone on here know how to put a goal on here?
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All that wasted time. Lost. Just completely lost. When life is already so short. And that feeling afterwards.....
 
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