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My Thoughts before & after fap

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Imtrying, Apr 15, 2015.

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  1. Apr 15, 2015 #1
    Imtrying

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    This is what's crazy. I can be fine & not thinking about it & something triggers it. This past time I received an email from someone wondering why I wasn't on messenger. I added messenger back & eventually we were having another filthy chat. I'm enjoying it & then immediately after.... I want no part of her. Same thing when I looked at porn. Minute I was done, I had no interest in seeing porn again. It's such a dramatic shift in personality. It always amazes me.
     
    Imtrying, Apr 15, 2015
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  2. Apr 17, 2015 #2
    nitsuj0786

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    Just read you post, I have had a lot of times where I will have several videos up on my computer and want to eventually see all of them. I will see clips here and there continually clicking and pausing them looking at the next one while the others load. Clicking through the tabs until I eventually finish and as soon as I do, any of the videos that I have up still I have no desire to finish.
     
    nitsuj0786, Apr 17, 2015
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  3. Apr 18, 2015 #3
    Caveat Emptor

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    I know how you feel bro.

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    Caveat Emptor, Apr 18, 2015
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  4. Apr 18, 2015 #4
    Kurapika

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    LOL :D
     
    Kurapika, Apr 18, 2015
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  5. Apr 19, 2015 #5
    Imtrying

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    I always think how easy it would be if I could skip steps & feel the way I do after. I can't even imagine looking at porn after.
     
    Imtrying, Apr 19, 2015
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  6. Apr 19, 2015 #6
    universesu

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    Every time after fap, I feel a little bit regret and have no desire to continue watching.
     
    universesu, Apr 19, 2015
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  7. Apr 21, 2015 #7
    Imtrying

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    It crazy how everything is the buildup. Once that part is over you never feel good
     
    Imtrying, Apr 21, 2015
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  8. Apr 22, 2015 #8
    nitsuj0786

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    You don't feel good and it is hours later. You wasted tons of time and are back to zero. Typing comments is helping me at this moment, urges are really high. Does anyone on here know how to put a goal on here?
     
    nitsuj0786, Apr 22, 2015
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  9. Apr 22, 2015 #9
    Kurapika

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    Just click on anyone's counter and set yours then choose customize counter settings and type a goal.
     
    Kurapika, Apr 22, 2015
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  10. Apr 22, 2015 #10
    nitsuj0786

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    Thanks
     
    nitsuj0786, Apr 22, 2015
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  11. Apr 22, 2015 #11
    Shai_Halud

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    We all feel that brother. My urges have been real bad this week. As much as I hate doing it I couldn't resist looking up the bikini model I am obsessed with. why? Because it feels awesome in the moment. I'm fighting the urge right now to keep from checking out her Twitter feed. I haven't relapsed to her but I'm still gettign that awesome dopamine blast to the head every time.
     
    Shai_Halud, Apr 22, 2015
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  12. Apr 22, 2015 #12
    nitsuj0786

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    Stay strong, what are the pros and cons of looking her up. You look but don't edge, ok edge but don't finish, whoops. And you are back at day zero feel like crap. And once you are at day zero it is hard to get back on track again. At least that has been my experience.
     
    nitsuj0786, Apr 22, 2015
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  13. May 17, 2015 #13
    Imtrying

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    I'd started a new streak. Was on day 3. Went to bed early & decided to see if any of the women I used to chat with was online. A few were but they were going to bed. Finally found one & engaged in some filthy talk. So so stupid. It feels good to write that. Just so very stupid. I wouldn't meet this woman for anything but I use her & others for this crap! I hate that. I'm doing better with not watching porn but chatting is still an issue.

    Literally it's like turning off the lights. A few minutes ago I was so into it. Now I can't understand how I slipped up. I'll do better tomorrow but what a waste!
     
    Imtrying, May 17, 2015
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  14. May 18, 2015 #14
    20cents

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    1. Delete the chat software.
    2. Read step 1.
    3. Just because you relapsed doesn't mean the day is a waste and you have an excuse to binge. Jump back onto that NoFap Rocket
    Stay strong.
     
    20cents, May 18, 2015
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  15. May 18, 2015 #15
    arturo111

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    In my last relapse, few days ago, i wach just P without of M and O. And now i'm broken but not like when i praktice pmo. So, from today i will start to use "idiot" phone without of internet. I live with my parents and they have pasword on our lap top, so, i think thats is my finaly stryggle!
     
    arturo111, May 18, 2015
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  16. May 18, 2015 #16
    IGY

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    Well done arturo111 - I hope it works for you. :)
     
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  17. May 18, 2015 #17
    arturo111

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    I hope so, Mr. IGY. I hope so...
     
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  18. May 19, 2015 #18
    Imtrying

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    Coming here helps.
    The thought I had most when I relapsed was " how pathetic". Nothing good comes of this. Ever.
     
    Imtrying, May 19, 2015
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  19. May 19, 2015 #19
    arturo111

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    also bro, also... We are in deep shit :(
     
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  20. May 19, 2015 #20
    Robert de Castella

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    All that wasted time. Lost. Just completely lost. When life is already so short. And that feeling afterwards.....
     
    Robert de Castella, May 19, 2015
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