My Thoughts before & after fap

[nitsuj0786]

That feeling is the worst, not to mention the chances of relapsing shortly after your first relapse are very high. Once you open that door it is hard to close it again. You brain thinks that you have almost give your self permission to PMO.

 

[Robert de Castella]

That feeling is the worst, not to mention the chances of relapsing shortly after your first relapse are very high. Once you open that door it is hard to close it again. You brain thinks that you have almost give your self permission to PMO.

Absolutely. Cannot remember a time when I've limited a relapse to just one helping of anything.. And then its everything all at once that's allowed and the spiral becomes real, all enveloping, overwhelming..

 

[Fowl]

The fact of the matter is that orgasms, when you achieve them alone, are rather anticlimactic (no pun intended). I've often made a conscious effort to not ogle at women in public and to always be polite. In fact, I really dislike men who make perverse sexual jokes behind women's backs. Many of my male coworkers are guilty of this and this makes me feel rather uncomfortable at work sometimes.

However, it seemed that before I began my recovery, I would have this Jekyll and Hyde dual personality, where I was polite and respectable during the day and descended into an insane, boorish, leering individual during nights when I'm alone in my room. I would spend hours building up to a climax while ogling at voyeuristic images/videos of women or exposing myself to some random gold digger on webcam. And as soon as I climaxed, I would spend hours regretting my actions, until I recharged myself the next day and allowed the cycle to continue.

Now when I get the urges, I remind myself of how I felt during those moments right after I've fapped and remember why I'm doing NoFap. And it's working out very well so far.

 

[WilliamOneAndDone]

Quitting porn was very difficult for me in the beginning. I went from wanting to relapse probably 50 times a day, then to a few times a day, then every day, but only a few times, then to days between, then a week, two weeks, three weeks, and then months between. I never will relapse now, it simply is not an option anymore, and though, yes, from time to time an image or thought will trigger me (which will always be the case), I have months between those uncomfortable but no longer challenging moments. The point I am making is, if you can get past the hard 90 then the longer you go the easier it becomes. Getting a dopamine high through exposure to porn is a learned behavior. Because of that, it is a behavior you must understand can be unlearned.

Good luck on your journey.

 

[Prov.4:23]

I went from wanting to relapse probably 50 times a day, then to a few times a day, then every day, but only a few times, then to days between, then a week, two weeks, three weeks, and then months between.

Were you the "one and done" or did it take you several attempts?

 

[WilliamOneAndDone]

Hi Prov. I had multiple attempts and failures until I saw the Gary Wilson video. Once I saw the video and studied it, and the dopamine problem, I was able to stop completely because, only with understanding, could I understand what I was stopping. I was not stopping porn, or stopping watching porn, I was stopping using porn to get a dopamine high. I had to understand that before I could quit.

 

[arturo111]

Hi Prov. I had multiple attempts and failures until I saw the Gary Wilson video. Once I saw the video and studied it, and the dopamine problem, I was able to stop completely because, only with understanding, could I understand what I was stopping. I was not stopping porn, or stopping watching porn, I was stopping using porn to get a dopamine high. I had to understand that before I could quit.

I saw G. W. video to, but after that i still waching porn when i have "porn atack"
In that moments i don't have control on myself... How ever, you are a strong carakter. Keep going

 

[Prov.4:23]

Yes, I liked the other videos you mentioned in a previous post @WilliamOneAndDone. Very helpful, I never even considered a young man struggling. It really sheds light on this issue.

 

[Imtrying]

Well I'm at 3 days so far. Just have to keep my mind on positive things. In the past, is stop doing something I loved just to look at porn. Made no sense. I'd just get an itch & it didn't matter what I was doing. Just staying positive. Not always easy. Tomorrow is Wednesday which for some reason is always a tough day. I guess I relax some.

 

[Robert de Castella]

Well I'm at 3 days so far. Just have to keep my mind on positive things. In the past, is stop doing something I loved just to look at porn. Made no sense. I'd just get an itch & it didn't matter what I was doing. Just staying positive. Not always easy. Tomorrow is Wednesday which for some reason is always a tough day. I guess I relax some.

You can do anything you put your mind to. Prepare for a tough battle. Prepare to win ¥