My thoughts

Hi this is my first time writing here although i have known about this place for a long time and i would like to get some input on my thoughts. I have been writing down for 10 minutes a day about the type of person i would be in the future with porn and without porn. It takes me 5 minutes for each one. And doing that actually worked! But only for two weeks at a time. By the second week there is always something that breaks me like a life problem or i saw something sexy on the internet. Its weird. Like this time i was getting tired of writing the things i write so i didnt do it. And i think the loss of motivation ruined the mentality i was trying to program in my brain. Like before i cave in i have a thought like "hey it would be great to watch some porn right now" and since i lost the motivation to write i say "hey i have no other thought to believe in right now, sure that sounds like a great idea!" And then i cave in. Its like my belief is my willpower, but when my belief is connected to a thought (like the things i write down) then i become the thing my thoughts say. Although i think im doing it wrong though? Because the goal is to plug in a narrative in my head to combat the thoughts that say " watch porn now!" I dont know. Im gonna keep trying this "writing thing" out. Im not sure how its going to go now that the whole motivation thing is gone. I guess this keeps my efforts tangible. The more i write the more control i have against my actions. Thats the plan anyway. Thanks for reading have an awsome day.( i also write on a small whiteboard i got from amazon so i dont wast paper and i also dont want people to see the embarising things i write)