Cliff Notes to my story is that I started looking at porn around age 13 and it got worse over decades. By my 30s I was depressed and needed the porn to escape the reality of my situation. I quit during July 2018. I was triggered to do this because of severe PIED. It got better over time and I was able to finally use a condom without losing an erection. This week I finally was able to have sex using a condom. It was such a relief. When I had the first incident of being unable to stay up I had panic attacks in the following days thinking my life was over and I would never recover. Anyone reading this and feeling hopeless; stay strong and give it time. I will probably add to this thread as time goes by but for now I could not wait to announce this milestone.