Need Advice / Help

[ThAy77]

Hey NoFap community.

I’ll keep it short :

Always loved women not told to like women just happened naturally so it’s not conditioned.

Pretty sure i’m addicted to porn
Got HOCD

HOCD >> Because of gay porn escalation
Before i got HOCD was jerking off to solo male stuff but liked women then couldn’t get hard for girlfriends nudes

HOCD

Now my HOCD isn’t that that bad most of the time. However i did a 20 day streak and relapsed

I’ve watched porn and masturbated for about the past 5 days and it makes me feel safe and gets rid of my HOCD

without porn I begin to feel like what if i like men now? So i need porn

do you think i’m gay now and NoFap is making me realise...or if i quit porn i’ll go back and like women

I can love women now just if i were to date one all i’d want from them is nudes and sex. I don’t want this i want a woman i can love and have sexual feelings for

Hope i’ve explained everything

Thanks

 

[Deleted Account]

So i need porn

No. You don’t. It sounds to me like your brain is playing some nasty tricks on you to get want it wants. Trust me, I know all about them. I listened to them last night. It’s tough man but you just gotta keep going. Have faith in the process.

 

[Rairah90]

Porn addiction makes us numb and unable to feel, once you start on your journey of breaking free, it will come naturally,the love for your girl will come and the sexual feelings will be present. It will be a great feeling. There is no shortcut, you need to break free from your unwanted sexual behaviours. Remember, it does not happen overnight

 

[Bigftninja]

Before I went on this site and tried to solve my PM issues on my own, my big issue wasn't that I was worried I was homosexual, but that I was worried that I was no longer sexually attracted to anyone at all and, in a similar fashion to your own issue, I end up doing PM to confirm. This kind of thing happens a lot for us all it seems and we all have different reasons for confirming our sexual impulses through PM. I dont think you are homosexual. My reasoning for this is simple:
First off from what your post says you have no problem being stimulated by females in porn so you probably wont have trouble in real life. The times you seem worried are during the period when your mind would crave porn from your addiction. Finally you recognize that your brain turns to porn to confirm you are straight which means it actually has all the info it needs to believe you are straight and really just needs its porn fix. It's just that your passions want you to think your homosexual so it can trick you because your logic is too good to fall for anything else.
In the end you should praise your logic from being to good to handle the basic stuff. Now your mind gets a challenge and I know you can fight PMO because you already have the knowledge necessary to find out how you truly feel and avoiding all the PMO will give your mind the clarity to see through all of it. Read through some of the success stories because a lot of people that had doubts in many of there personal sexual attitudes found out that after a successful reboot there feelings of their sexual nature were certain. So to conclude I think once you have a successful reboot your do doubts will probably be relieved. I hope things get better and I will be praying for you. Have a good night.