I want to share my story of porn being a problem in my relationship. English is not my first language, so there might be mistakes. My boyfriend and I are together for 1,5 years. After we watched the movie don Jon couple of months ago, we starten talking about watching porn. I hated it to hear that he watched it. I took some time to think about it and I didnt feel secure and good enough anymore i hated it that he watched other woman. The pain and the hurt didnt stop, so i wrote him a huge email with my feelings about it: That i was feeling so sad that he needed to see porn and that i didnt feel secure anymore about my own body. The porn he watched were very skinny girls and i am skinny, but not model skinny. I even tried to lose weight to satisfy him. In the beginning of our relationship he couldnt get an erection and it broke my heart. I thought it was because of me not being pretty enough, but now i know the reason why. We agreed both that porn is bad for our relationship. So i thought he would quit forever. So after my email i send him, 7 months later we talked about it again. I felt like his behavior was changed a bit again. I was just feeling that he was watching again without telling me about it. We had a huge fight. He admitted that he was clean for a couple of months, but started watching again the last weeks. My heart broke and is still broken i am so so sad that he is still watching it without telling me i just couldnt believe it. After a huge fight and almost a break up he says now that he wants to stop watching and choose for us. BUT i am so hurt and sad, that i dont know if i can trust him ever again! I feel so betrayed by him. And have the feeling that he might keep other secrets from me. I feel ugly, i feel super sad, i feel just not enough. How can i ever fix my relationship? we talked and he still says he is going to quit, but how can i ever believe him? I feel so lost.