So I have been on this site since February 2017. I started off with great enthusiasm and willingness to get rid of my addiction. I was quite surprised by my achievement that time. I was clean for almost 5 complete months. No pmo whatsoever. I was loving the feeling of being pmo free. It's the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I was able to do things more efficiently without having random porn thoughts. This went down the drain when I relapsed in the month of July. And that relapsed sucked I just jerked off in the morning for no fucking reason. Honestly after that relapse I wasn't feeling depressed and guilty. I was doing fine but after that followed series of relapses one after another. And the guilt started to hit me in the face. My brain was making me do all kind of things which I have been abstaining from since Feb. I watched porn I stayed up late night. I still am in the same phase and now I want this to stop. I stopped visiting the site from end of May as I thought I dont need to be here anymore and I've lost all my nofap companion some of them have gone since a while some don't visit that frequently. If anyone who can help me out with this I would really appreciate it. I never felt the need of AP before but now I do. My real name is Aditya, male. I'm from India. I'm 19 years old. I'm a student. To overcome this addiction I started an instagram page by the name saved_for_later_98 I post motivating quotes and try to motivate others and motivate myself. Thank you for reading. Hope you have a wonderful day and dont forget to keep smiling.