Need continuous stimulation

Hello, I will come straight to the point. I have been MOing for long long time. Probably from the age of 8. Now when I m thinking to start a relationship with a girl I like, I decided to test myself. And bang, No matter how erotic my thoughts are or how erotic video/ picture i m having at my desktop, I can’t get a hard on. I would only get hard via physical stimulation. Once I get hard, if I stop the physical stimulation, my erection goes away in around 15 seconds. Also, I always used my left hand while masturbation, may be thats why my penis has bent towards left. (This is just my guess. If I try to get hard without physical touch, I feel really aroused but won’t get any erection. Instead my penis would just bend in left direction.) I used to start masturbation without getting hard on. (This could be another reason but again its just my guess)

I get morning wood daily (80% erection). Never felt pain while masturbation or ejaculating. My age is 31 and BMI is normal. No heart related issues. But I have poor digestion system. I am a virgin.

I have met a well known urologist. He said don’t bother about the bend, if u r getting morning wood then there is no physical problem. He seemed pretty confident but didn’t do any tests.

I could not find similar thread here but was able to find one on YBOP. That guy was told that he is having PIED.

To summarize:

1. MOing for around 23 years. Don’t need porn for that. Always used left hand.

2. Used to masturbate without getting hard on.

3. Masturbation frequency: 3-4 times a day

4. Need physical stimulation to get a hard on.

5. Can’t maintain erection for more than 15 seconds without continuous stimulation.

6. No injury on penis or surroundings. No serious illness or medication history.

7. Can get arousal easily just by few thoughts or visuals but no erection. Penis would bend in left.

I am thinking to start 90 days hard mode. But can anyone advise if they know whats going on with me. I want to believe my urologist but does daily morning wood confirms there is no physical problem? Also, If anyone has experienced this scenario, is it possible to have sex with condom with this 15 seconds erection? Any advise would be a great help.

Please excuse the long post but I am a bit confused and hoping for some help.

 

Thanks @recoome. Yeah, thats what I thought. Hard mode. I know its going to be real difficult for me. But if this what it takes I m gonna do it.
But I am a bit confused about hard mode. Can anybody advise: Does hard mode say no P M and O only? I mean is it ok if you fool around with your girlfriend and may be make out or that is also supposed to be avoided?