Need for meditation, spirituality or something else

Hi guys, I’m looking to quit porn completely and get to a point where I can masturbate without it. Whenever I try and quit I get fairly far but there’s no real considerable change in my life and after about a month I’ll slip up and fall head first into addiction again.

I don’t do it out of boredom and i try and keep myself busy but I feel like I’m missing something to keep me off it for good. There’s some sort of maintenance I’m not doing and I feel like it’s the one piece to the puzzle that I need. I really want to overcome this and do good things in my life.

Since quiting I think an issue might be that I haven’t really changed anything. I started volunteering in a charity shop to help a decent cause and I started doing workouts and eating more (because I’m too skinny) but I don’t feel at all like that cuts it. I’ve also tried to change my approach to thinking about certain things but I still just don’t feel like that’s good enough. This also isn’t exclusively about PMO tbh it’s more about just improvement in general.

I feel like one of my main issues is that I’m lacking a spiritual depth to my life which would enable me to just brush off the idea of PMO. What works for people?
I don’t believe in god and as much as I sort of want to I can’t force myself to. I know some people here use meditation. How effective is that? I feel like there’s just something missing which enables me to do something as shallow and meaningless as PMO.

 

Thanks for the comment. I think you’re right. I need to completely reject the idea of going back to it and see it as low as it is

 

Thanks

 

I’ve checked out recovery dharma and it’s a great tool. Thanks for introducing me to it