Need help! Anyone going through what I am?

Literally got into brutal rape porn, was looking for animal rape porns, the whole fucking mile. Know exactly how you feel. Relapsed half an hour ago after 3 day streak Here I go again tho.

 

Hi, Kie. Of course we will help you. You are in a safe, supportive, place and there are many others here that have, will, and are going through the same things you are. And everyone is recovering. I know it's scary to realize the monster that is porn, but that fear brought you here, amen. You will get better and it is never too late.
Here are some tips and strategies from current fapstronauts.

I wish you the best of luck.

 

i know what you are going though cause i experinced it
you need to stay strong buddy
you cant quit from pmo in one try
you need to first understand what it did to your life , your relationship with others
you need to always stay motivated and you should tell yourself pronography brought me nothing except pain to you and your loved ones
if you need support remember we are always here to support you
but you should also understand its you who could help you
we can only motivate you but its you who fight againt pmo
keep fighting
never give up

 

Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?

 

Stay strong.

First, it's important to start to separate what was in those videos from what you actually feel and believe. When you see such an intense image, it can cut through and stay burned in your brain for awhile. Because we are used to watching videos, we are used to the practice of 'suspension of disbelief'. It means that to engage in the story, we have to allow ourselves to stop thinking about how false it is, and let go to be able to finish the video. That is how many of these images hook you. It promises intensity. It promises the loudest sounds. And you think, it's ok, it's not real, without even realizing it you suspend your disbelief, and later you end up feeling like it was real. The fact, that you don't want these images, that you feel miserable about it, is all a good sign.

Next, while people do get hurt because of videos, the connection between you and that violence is very distant. You didn't hurt those women. You watched them being hurt. Yes, I know it is deeply confusing, and it feels the same. However, you didn't create the violence, and because it was a video, there was nothing you could have done to stop the violence. (I know you had arousal while you watched, but realize that this wasn't a real life situation where you had choices in how to deal with it). Much of what you see is false anyway. Most videos you encounter are paid actors who staged the scenes. Please breath a little better because of this.

Stay strong on your reboot. Talk it out here, you are not alone, unique, or broken. This has happened to us all. Give the images time to fade, and you will see that they don't arouse you anymore, and you would come to the realization that you would never do anything like that in real life. (Those videos aren't you).

Prioritize yourself now, and let the healing of the reboot take place.

When you have a little clarity, if you still feel strongly miserable about what you have seen, then you can contribute or volunteer to different women's movements which help abused women, or help educate people about abuse. You don't have to be a victim to these images, there are avenues of action you can take to positively contribute.

For now, focus on letting that noise fade from your mind. I hope the day brings you peace.

 

Check out In Case You Didn't Know for strategies and tips to help you along your journey.

 

Hello, @kieran maher! Welcome. Drop a pipe-bomb on this addiction with us...

 

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Hey Kie, it's been a while since you posted this, but I thought it might be interesting to share my female PMO perspective. I get off on the same thing: brutal humiliation, rape and BDSM porn, always imagining I'm the woman in the videos. I've been watching porn since I was about 12 and I think it has really fucked me up. I am so desensitized for real sex that in order to feel anything I want men to beat me up, spit me in my face and do other humiliating things. Still, in real life I have a hard time getting wet (guess that's the female equivalent of an ED), while I do get wet when I watch porn. It sucks and I don't want to go on like this. I want to be able to enjoy sex without being abused and without having to worry about getting wet. I'm sorry if that was too much information. I'm on day 3 now of my challenge and I'm having a hard time. Hope you're doing fine. Don't beat yourself up about your weird porn preferences be worried about your own health instead. If you're determined to stop, you can do it. Think about the great sex you'll have in real once you don't depend on porn anymore!