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need help desperately!!!

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by chesslover, Feb 18, 2019.

  1. chesslover

    chesslover Fapstronaut

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    hello friends!i am 24 year old man and i am a victim of intense porn addiction.From childhood,i have had a bright academic career and always looked forward towards a bright future.But, 6 years ago, i started masturbating.As i did it, i felt more and more pleasure and got addicted to chronic overmasturbation.I do it 3--4 times daily.But,the pblm is that i have realized overtime that this type of addiction is far worse than that of drugs or alcohol(though i have never established a relationship with those things in my life).But,this sole destructive habit has changed my life entirely,made it extremely miserable.
    For the past 5 years, i have made more than 1000 attempts to give it up but i have always failed.i have read countless success stories of porn addicts,how their life changed once they recovered.I have had enough motivation to give it up and have several brief abstainance periods foe few days to weeks but the urge becomes so strong eventually that it seems at that moment of irresistable urge, some greater force is controlling me.As if, the demon inside me has awakened up.The moment i do it again,i feel immensely guilty,depressed and hopeless that i will never be able to give it up and this will lead me towards my doom!!!
    I have read how PMO overtime alters the brain, reduces grey matter and causes shrinkage of prefeontal cortex.I have read and experienced myself the dullness and cognitive impairments that PMO causes and how the brain functions abnormally due to formation of new neural pathways and stimulating the brain to obtain more pleasure by releasing more dopamine just like drug addicts!!I have read them countless times as to how it devastates a person but, no.matter how much i read and how many promises i make to myself to quit it, once i have an urge , it seems i am not in self ctrl.Someone else is controlling me and at that moment,every thing i have read against masturbation just goes away.I have trained my brain to expect more and more pleasure and read on the net that it is difficult to train it not to expect that further and indeed, many people have been successful in doing that but i am still far away and wonder whether i will never be able to escape from this grasp of the demonic act!!I have lots of ambitions in my life and i also need to make myself a proper man by establishing myself but this habit has just hypnotized me and kept me way distant from my goals!!As if i cannot ctrl.myself.I have read enough motivation stories and planned a 1000 ways to keep these thoughts out of the mind and to divert it,This works temporarily, but again that filthy mindest comes back to ejaculate.I have read how people have made themselves so efficient and enjoyed their lives after giving up this habit and i plan so many things but i wished that the mentality against this habit which i currently have writing this post, i hope my mind would always be like this but sadly,this does not happen.
    I seek desperate help as to how i can get this demon out of me and what to do in case of a relapse???How can i just allow the sexual urges that arise in my mind just to pass away without affecting me ???.And how to deal with the withdrawal symptoms??please help me
     
  2. rick2k11

    rick2k11 Fapstronaut

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    A successful person can fail 1,000 time all they need is to be successful once for it to count. Im 24 as well i've been addicted sense i was 12 the truth is there isn't a trick or new technique to succeed. It's going to sounds simple but the only way to really stop is to do just that stop. There are ways you can mitigate the effects of withdrawal but you will always have to make the conscious decision everyday to quit.
     

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