Hey everyone! I dont know if this was the right category to post this but here goes. I've been struggling with PMO for quite a while and I think that the main cause is my abusive childhood. I went through quite a bit of bullying and abuse and as a result I developed a subconcious avoidance/fear of physical contact. I flinch when people touch me(eg pat my back/shoulders) and the thought of getting close to a person makes me quite uncomfortable so I avoid women instinctively. After reading and speaking to a psychiatrist, I learned that this is a cause of PTSD. Well, that has caused me to lead a hermit lifestyle and feel extremely lonely and depressed. I have went to a lot of counselors about this but I am am struggling quite a lot with this and I want to grow past this. I was wondering if anyone could give me some advice or reccomend any books/videos that are relevant on the matter?