NEED HELP PLEASE !

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by 19m, May 28, 2018.

  1. 19m

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    hey guys I think I have like a anal fetish from porn that led to transsexual and gay porn by I never watched porn with two people it was only one . Before porn I never liked gay or transsexual porn and I do identify as straight by the way kissing another man or transsexual doesn’t sound right in my head and was wondering when this will go away I’m on day 88 and I’ve had like one month where I could get horny to girls and the other stuff disappears and the next month like right now it’s the opposite . I might want to add I’m 19 and have been watching porn since 9th grade and went into transsexual and gay porn pretty quickly :( and I know I’m straight because I have no feelings for men nor does dick turn me on in fact it’s the opposite so any help would be greatly appreciate it !
     
  2. Mao Zedong

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    I think you have a sexual identity crisis, maybe triggered by porn.Sounds really new and rare to me.You can be bi too
     
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  3. 19m

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    You’ve never heard of a porn induced fetish before ? I wasn’t interested in this stuff before porn and plus I don’t like the touch of a man like that or I couldn’t imagine myself kissing one or loving one as well penis is definitely a turn off for me as well
     
  4. Full ahead

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    Welcome here...I think porn takes out our deepest fetish and desires, but it does not mean you are gay, maybe is that watching that crap one feels free to experiment different roles, etc (On another hand, you may be in an identity crisis, and it could be you have some degree of attraction for men or certain kind of men. Perhaps you would like to read the Kinsey Report!).
    In any case, remember the goal of this Site is to help people to get rid of PMO addiction, not to "straight up gay guys" or anything like that. Is important to bear that in mind.
     
  5. 19m

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    I’m not gay tho! What don’t you guys get that I’m not physically attracted to them or penis !
     
  6. 19m

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    I have never had feelings for men and still don’t not one bit only women !
     
  7. Full ahead

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    Got it, no problem. Have a great day! :=)
     
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  8. TheMightyQuinn

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    Hey there. It's not uncommon that straight guys engage in gay porn or even gay hook-ups in their addiction. Porn and sex addiction isn't about sex, it's about getting high. No, it does not mean you are gay. As you abstain more and more, your true sexual identity will be understood. It really doesn't matter what type of porn, just abstain from it all like you have been.

    Peace to you,
    -Quinn
     
  9. 19m

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    Thank you and nice name ! I’m on day 89 now and I watched that stuff for like 1-2 years straight everyday for over an hour so it’ll probblay take 3-6 months easily or more
     
  10. 19m

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    Full head does that parody
    does that clarify things more for you?
     
  11. It might take a while. But if the fetish is porn induced then it will go away with time as you fully reboot. That's for sure. Just keep at it.
     
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  13. pmoproject

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    Yeah, kinda just to add on, at least in my circumstance I went for more extreme thing due to desensitization, this includes acts that I would never think about doing with a partner that I did to my self, just to feel pleasure
     
  14. fercho29

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    Hi @19m , do not get anxious.
    Give yourself more time so your brain can get rid of all the shit you have loaded during these years of addiction.
    At the ned of the road you will be out of the "zombie mode" (or autopilot) and your brain will start thinking by itself, instead of by craving engrained in your subconscious.
    It take a lot of time and patience.
    I have been 3 years clean, and even then I still had some fantasies and urges. This lead me to a relapse 2 weeks ago, after 1097 clean.
    This is not meant to discourage (I am back on my feet and fighting), just to show you how long the effects of PMO can stay in our brain , although they get weaker and weaker.
    BTW, I consider myself bisexual. I used to have sex with men, but never was emotionally or romantically attracted to them. Just lust and cravings.
    This happens to many bisexual here in this site.
    This does not mean you are gay or bisexual, but just wanted to clarify that topic
    Stay strong
    Fercho
     
  15. 19m

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    Thank you! Plus deep down inside I know porn fucked me up badly and I didn’t like those things before porn
     
  16. 19m

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    Also since you are bisexual do you enjoy penis ?
     

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