I’ll give a shortened backstory first. During my mid mid teens I met a girl. I was into her and she was into me. Only problem was she had a boyfriend and was sexually active. It should have ended at that but it didn’t. She would talk about what they did and I found it excruciating and the amount of jealousy built up in me was horrible. I turned to masturbation as a coping mechanism. Now I have unwanted hotwife fantasies and hate myself for it. I have to desire to act these out, it’s just the only porn that gets me off now. I hate it, and myself for it and I don’t know if nofap will help. I google it after every session in disgust and all I see are people encouraging these fetishes on other sites. Again, I have no desire to act these feeling out in real life or anything degrading like cleaning. That’s disgusting. Is this something that can be fixed via nofap? I’m honesty desperate here.