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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Timeforachange90, Apr 25, 2018.

  1. Timeforachange90

    Timeforachange90 Fapstronaut

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    i first joined this community over 3 months ago due to webcam addiction. I lasted 97 days but was overcome a week ago. Now I am back on and on every day. I need help!
     
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  2. TheTruthIsHidden

    TheTruthIsHidden Fapstronaut

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    What led you to return back to it after 97 days?
     
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  3. Timeforachange90

    Timeforachange90 Fapstronaut

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    I'm not sure. My wife and kids were out and I was working alone at home. I got an urge which felt overwhelmingly exciting, an urge to throw caution to the wind and not do what I should do - which is not go on cams. I immediately went and signed up and bought credit - I couldn't stop myself. Now I have a huge amount of credit on the cam site that I do not want. I got bored very quickly - I'm feeling down that it could come on so quickly out of what felt like nowhere. I lost control.
     
  4. PMO addict

    PMO addict Fapstronaut

    Hey Timeforachange90. Sorry to hear it but you are not a bad person. You are a good person who just has an illness (addiction) that cropped back up.

    I usually relapsed when I negected to get my treatment for my addiction which is things like addressing my addiction. Reading this forum, meetings, getting help, etc. My addiction never went away. It would crop back up just like your situation, leaving me dumbfounded.

    Don't beat yourself up for losing the money. You have the credit but it doesn't mean you have to use it. Look at it as a donation. You donated to some people's livelihood so they can eventually pay for the therapy they will need to heal from sex addiction too. It's not wasted. And you got a learning experience out of it.

    Coming clean to your wife might be tough. But you don't need to spill it all to her until you're ready. Tell people in the NoFap program and that will help you get past it. If you're afraid she will be mad then wait until you got some clean time under your belt again. Then you can say look I had a slip 15 30 whatever days ago but I got back on the horse and I'm sorry. What you really need is your own forgiveness not your wife's or mine or anyone else's.

    If you are stuck in a relapse, that is common after a long streak. If I picked up after a long streak I would be stuck in a relapse because its like my addiction takes my brain back over. Eventually you will be set free from the relapse again, and have another chance. It will come sooner or later.

    Hope this helped. Try to forgive yourself. Stick around the forums a little (if you want to) and get some support.
     

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