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These are just intrusive thoughts. They are natural and your brain just trying to psyche itself out. Look it up "Intrusive Thoughts". Its not always because of PMO, they can be random, but if you do a lot of PMO, your intrusive thoughts could end up being more sexual. But either way, be careful and stay on the right path for the better.

 

Yea it does help! Especially with the focusing and overthinking

 

this worlds a fucked up place. i remember when i heard of that serbian snuff film, and boy.

 

It sounds like you have OCD based intrusive thoughts. I have suffered the same feelings from reading news articles, stories about sexual deviants and what not during my recovery ,that was detrimental to my mental wellbeing that I had severe intrusive thoughts. Try not to dwell on them, but if it becomes so hard that you cannot lose those thoughts, do something you love to take your mind off it, like a hobby or video games.

Don't worry, just try to think of something else and maybe see a psychologist if the thought become problematic. I have suffered the same feeling whilst recovering from porn addiction. I think it was ingrained from reading too much about sex crime news stories and stuff, to it becoming problematic when I saw the negative effects of porn from a website called Fight The New Drug and Gary Wilson's book, "Your brain on porn". Although these websites were helpful in my recovery, they also increased the level of shame I had and also the intensified the frequency of these intrusive thoughts. I started to see myself as the bad people or at least tried to make a connection. It is always false, and don't let shame get ahead of you.

You're definitely over-thinking it, like I was. Just try to engage in something wholesome to take your mind of the negativity. Whatever you do, DO NOT continue reading these kinds of news articles and such. It will only make things worse, your anxiety will increase and you will start to lose control over your daily routine. If your still recovering from PMO, please continue down this path to recovery, and overtime, these intrusions will disappear.