Need help !!

Hi everyone,
I'm 45, have been doing M since i was 11-12. It started with magazines and then with internet. I never really enjoyed porn but i loved watching amature videos involving real people (you know what I mean).
But i don't think i am addicted to porn. On the other hand i am/was definitely addicted to M.There were days i couldn't sleep without M.
Slowly i developed ED. There were times when i used to feel horny but there was no erection. Aslo the way i M is weird. I hold my dick in open palms and rub my palms as you would rub them on a cold morning.
All this lead to ED, PE and loss of libido.
If i take tadalafil 10-15 mg i get good erections and can have good sex. But without it i can't.
I usually get good morning erections.So I think, (again, i think) my body is fine but by brain/mind is not supporting.
I think my brain has got used to easy orgasms due to M. On top of that the way i M is not the way we have orgasm during sex.
So i have decided to stop M completely. I don't watch porn that much, but will stop whever i do. I was exercising intermittently, which i will start doing regularly.
Should I continue taking tadalafil whenever my partner wants to have sex, may be once or twice a month?
Whatever i have decided to do, is that good enough? Thoughts of not getting natural erections bother me a lot , (although i get morning erections).
Please help ...

 

Thanks a lot for your reply and support.

 

Bro, i have been thinking about stopping M for a long time. But this forum has given me much required motivation. As you rightly said, hoping to cure my ED and PE as many others.

 

Today is the 8th day since I last masturbated. No urges so far but at the same time libido is non existent.

 

Ya, exactly

 

Hi all, today I had a sexy dream and I woke up to realise that I had a solid erection. But I lost the erection pretty fast. I am neither exited nor disappointed.
It is just 10th day of my no PMO. Again, in general there are urges for masturbation and no noticable libido.