Need Some Advice

I've gone for over five months without intentionally masturbating or watching porn. I'm so proud of myself for achieving that success. I can't believe I've made it this far. However for the last couple months I've had this problem of masturbating in my sleep. It doesn't happen every night. It's happened off and on for the last couple months, but it's been more frequent recently. I don't know what could be causing this. I don't have a history of sleep walking. I can remember one incident in the past of me sleepwalking. A lot of you reading this are probably thinking that I'm just having wet dreams. They're definitely not wet dreams. It's definitely not a common problem, but it has happened to other people. The name for it is sexsomnia. When it happens it's like you're in a trance. You have no control over yourself or your body. You're just along for the ride. I can remember times when I'll be masturbating in my sleep and I can see that I'm masturbating, but I can't stop myself or do anything about it until I ejaculate and wake up. I always wake up at the point that I orgasm. There's been other times when I'll wake up at the point of orgasm with semen flowing out of my penis and either naked from the waist down or completely naked and I'm left wondering how it even happened. The latter of the two is what's been happening recently. I've done some research on this and found out I may be suffering from REM sleep disorder. People who suffer from REM sleep disorder usually act out dreams and remember the dream they were acting out, although they may not understand what happened when they first wake up. In the dream they're action may be completely justified, but to an outside observer their actions may be completely meaningless or random. This definitely sounds like what I'm suffering from. It's such a frustrating problem and I'm so sick of it. I've tried a lot of things to keep it from happening. I try to exercise frequently, which I should definitely try to do more. I don't get nearly as much exercise as I should. I try to stay away from caffeine in the evening. I don't drink anything with caffeine after 5pm. I power off any electronic devices such as my phone or computer two hours before bed. Another step I take to avoid this sleep masturbating is praying to God every night that it won't happen.It might sound silly to some people, but I think if I pray and am loyal to God that he can keep this from occuring. I really want to put an end to this problem. I find it really bothersome and it keeps me from achieving any of the benefits of NoFap. I still have a lot anxiety, especially social anxiety. I get really depressed at times. These symptoms get especially bad the day after I masturbate in my sleep. I can remember one time when I was sitting in one of my classes in school and I just had this intense anxiety. My palms were sweating like crazy and I just felt generally uncomfortable. Then there was the time when I went out to eat for a family dinner at a restaurant and I had absolutely the worst anxiety ever. My face turned red out of anxiety. My palms got really sweaty and I was just so nervous. It should have been a fun, relaxing, family dinner, but it was ruined by my intense anxiety. That's why I need to put an end to this sleep masturbating. This anxiety and depression is ruining my life. I can't live like this. It hasn't happened in the past couple days, but I'm sure it will happen again. What I've been think about it talking about it with the therapist that I see every two weeks. Maybe he can come up with some kind of solution to this problem. What I don't want to do is tell my parents about this. If I tell my therapist at least he can keep it private. At this point I really think I have to take action and do something about this problem. I can't just sit back and let it ruin my life. I’ll be seeing my therapist a week from now. I want your guy’s advice. Should I tell me therapist about sleep masturbating problem? I realized that in order to tell him about my sleep masturbating problem I’m going to have to tell him about my PMO addiction as well because that’s what led to this sleep masturbating issue. That’s going to be very difficult and very embarrassing, but if he can come up some kind of solution to my problem it will all be worth it in the end. So if you guys could just weigh in and tell me whether or not I should tell my therapist and if you do think I should tell him, how should I say it? Any advice is greatly appreciated.

 

Thank you! I'll be sure to pray and exercise more often.