Need some assistance - ED returned

I’ve been doing Kegels for 10 months. My recovery has been slow as I come from a very compulsive M behavior for years. Kegels have been essential for my recovery.

 

I do my routines everyday. It takes me around 10 min. I do this:

1st series. Contraction of a muscle I feel in the abdomen, just above my penis. This the classical muscle people refer when they recommend to hold the stream as you pee. I make 1 s contraction, 1 s release, 1 s contraction, 1 s release. 30 times. Then, a sustained hold for 10 s.

2nd series. Reverse contraction or pushing, of a muscle in the perineum, that ends just behind my testicles. A sensation similar when you push to poo. I make 1 s push, 1 s release, 1 s push, 1 s release. 30 times. Then a sustained hold for 10 s.

3rd series. Both contractions, above the penis and behind the testicles. I visualize it as a ring. Contraction of the ring for 1 s, 1 s release, 1 s contraction, 1 s release. 30 times. Then a sustained hold for 10 s.

After that I do a contraction-release ring in a quick pace. I don’t count it. It’s just like play time, relax time to break the exercise.

I hope to have described it enough. Feel free to reach me with any question.

 

I have been pmoing since I was thirteen and I really didn't think it was a problem until I had sex for the first time. It felt like nothing. Like pmo was better. Couldn't even have an orgasm from vaginal stimulation. At that point I realized how negatively I had been affected. I've always preferred pmoing to sex since that day. But I heard that it takes 6 months for the effects of pmo to be cured. So I said why not. I hope we'll be able to pull through and become whole again.