A pornography addiction has got to be the worst kind out there. I joined NoFap several months ago and I've been struggling throughout. I don't even use my counter anymore. There are times when I will be fine. I've made it to 14 days which is my personal best. I'll have a good streak going and then completely blow it and any progress I've made. I really want to quit. It's like my mind is telling me "I'll be damned if you take this away from me!" Thing is....not only do I want to...I need to quit! I have to. I'd be lying if I told you I'm doing this for me alone. I have been in a long term relationship for a year now. I plan on proposing in October. She knows all about my addiction. The lies, the sneakiness, she knows. I cannot lose her. It's not like I haven't been trying. I even downloaded covenant eyes on everything. My desktop cpu, my laptop, my android and my ipad. But let's face it. I'm a real addict and I know how to find a loophole. Doesn't have to been hardcore for me to get off. There's NETFLIX, youtube and everything else. Twerking is everywhere! There will always be triggers. So what do I do? What can I do to re-direct my mind from all of the negative triggers?? Feels like I'm no good at doing anything else. Any advice?! I'm sick of lying to my girl. FYI she's broken up with me twice over this BS! I'm ready to settle down with here but I can't have her and porn too! Any help??