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Need some reassurance... second guessing this proccess at times..

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Awolnation28, Nov 13, 2016.

  1. Awolnation28

    Awolnation28 Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys,

    I just wanted to see if i could get some feedback about a few things. Maybe their are other guys in similar situations?

    Im about 40 days in now. No PMO. My second streak now of around 40 days. No porn for over 90 days.

    My problem is that, sure im making amazing progress in my life but im miserable!!! Im grumpy, irritable, not sleeping, not feeling like dating and etc.. argumentative. Very opinionated. and i know people will tell me to meditate and exercise. But i do those everyday. For hours.

    So half my brain is saying, "look at all your progress! Im replacing all my bad habits with good habits!

    But the other half of my brain is like "ever since i started nofap, I haven't been the nicest person to be around" its obvious. I can see it in my friends and families faces and their words.

    Before i started nofap i was dating alot of different woman and i had lots of cool new experiences and stories to tell my friends!! so part of me is like, why the heck are you doing this torture to yourself when you could RIGHT NOW go on a date and have fun with a girl.

    I just seemed like a happier guy before. I've never been so happy than after i went on a date with a new girl.

    The only problem is that, none of those girls ever lasted....

    Maybe the reason i should keep doing nofap is because. Before I had INCREDIBLE highs and deep deep lows afterwards. And what is happening right now, is that im missing those incredible highs?

    Maybe i shouldnt mistake those incredible highs as a good thing... because inevitably they always came crashing down.

    I just miss those crazy highs and having new experiences. Those kinds of experiences with woman that i will never forget... Since nofap, i haven't had any major highs. My life feels flat. No fun.

    Its hard to find a reason to continue nofap when i know i could go on POF or tinder and get a date within a couple of hours prob.

    Im pretty positive that, the same pattern might play out though... i have a great fucking 3 or 4 dates with her. i start to REALLY like her. I get clingy and paranoid. I start smoking more weed, more video games to distract myself and boom. Im back to porn. And boom she leaves me. I scare her away.

    If i stick with nofap. Maybe ill be able to KEEP the woman around after 3 or 4 dates?

    Cause really my life was great before (with porn) except for the fact that i wasnt able to KEEP the woman in my life. I just had great first couple dates and they would vanish after they saw the paranoid, clingy me.
     

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