Need to know if this is porn addiction

Hi everyone was looking for some clarification to see if i have porn addiction or just love masterbation and women lol.First off i will tell u my story.OK ive just turned 39,i dont feel or look 39 and i dont particularly think 39 in this day and age is that old anyway! Im healthy with no prior health issues or problems! I workout during the week and take care of myself.

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Anyway i first started watching soft porn from an early age around 11-12 i subscribed to all the well known adult channels playboy,adult,red hot all the usual ones,back then i couldent wait for my parents to go to sleep lol anyway the more i watched these channels the more i realised i wanted the uncensored videos where u could see the full action! I was a teen and its normal right!! The more i watched the more i loved the pornstars in the movies such as jenna Jameson,jill kelly,houston all the american stars! But the movies was censored so i wanted to see the real videos so i then started to go to sex shops looking for these videos with these incredibly hot women who starred in them! After getting lost a few times on the way home most likely to over excitment i decided to order online from america.was jacking off 2-3--4 upto 5 times a day and also went on holiday and ordered pay per view and spent days jacking off instead of scuber diving lol!! I remember my dad didnt appreciate the hotel bill when we left but it didnt say what it was so i got lucky.Next i would buy the dvds off the guys selling around the industrial estates and businesses but would always look for certain women and stars of these movies! Basically ive always wstched porn like most guys do right? But its got to the point where i watch it when im not horny and even when im tired and not in the mood! Sometimes i dont even wanna watch it and do watch because im bored! Im really not sure if its addiction or just love women as we all do! I dont just look out for these certain stars anymore and obviously watch the new girls but i do go back to my favourite stars from time to time! I like black women alot also and watch alot of black pornos too.

But the problem i now have is that when i look at a real women nothing is happening much down below as where it was before and its really depressing the f....k out of me! Going out meeting women and not being able to sleep with them as my dick is not responding? I mean ive had sex with plenty of women in the past but ive never enjoyed it as much as jacking off and it didnt feel as good! Its so annoying and fustrating kowing im a confident good looking guy who can pull women but im now so worried about not performing when i get her back that i dont try to get her back if that makes sense? But its got to the point now where it feels like there is a blockage in my head and sometimes when i jack off theres not even any feeling form the orgasm its scary! My head feels cloudy! The strange thing is i can go days without porn and dont feel addicted at all! But because this cloud or annoying feeling im my head gets worse i feel i need to wank to clear it but as soon as i do it feels good for a little while and then my head is cloudy and this annoying thing is back! Is that porn addiction or a maybe a health problem? If i thought never masterbating again would help then i could do it no problem but i dont like the idea of denying myself pleasure as i like looking at women. Its got to the point to where my erection isnt as hard and sometimes only gets semi and when i do watch porn i cum really quickly and then jack off again maybe 3 times in a row and feel guilty! But as i said i can go without porn i dont need it or want it but just do it through boredom and why shoukd i deny myself somthing i like? Please any answers and help would be appreciated.