need word porn... relapsed

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by ItsNotWorthIt, Oct 19, 2016.

  1. ItsNotWorthIt

    ItsNotWorthIt Fapstronaut

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    relapsed while being drunk... watched a porn and masturbated...
    i'm in rehab for my alcoholism and in a mental hospital for my "issues"
    they allowed me to go home on Wednesday till tomorrow
    -whisky bottle almost empty (urge to buy another)
    -if they find out i got drunk they wont let me go home... but i have to tell them cuz i wanna get better so i will -.-... :'(
    - being drunk is the only way i can feel anything good... cant handle this empty bad feeling

    -need some words that can lift up my mood :(urge to kill myself is very high
    but i still wanna live
    keep me alive with some words please...
     
  2. DiogoFSantos

    DiogoFSantos Fapstronaut

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    Bro! You can do it! You can win all the battles (alcohol, PMO, "issues") if look for help and get some courage to deal with a real reboot! No more excuses! Start now, #justfortoday!
     
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  3. Sunshadow

    Sunshadow Distinguished Fapstronaut

    You are greater than your failures. No matter how bad you feel, or how bleak the future looks, you are greater than it.
     
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  4. Jodo Kus

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    I would recommend you to focus on small things. Things that give you pleasure or things that demands your concentration. Like watching a movie, reading an article or build something. But better when you actively do something than just watching or listening. Don't let yourself be interrupted, finish things if possible.

    Cherish the things you make, cherish what gives you a good feeling or what you think is in some way good for you - like a talk, or a coffee, or something in nature.

    Try to avoid negative input and too much input. Try one thing at a time. Focus on small things.

    Accept your problems and don't be too hard with yourself. Sometimes we can go only very little steps, but that steps count!

    If your drinking problem is heavy, it might be not the time to care for porn addiction. But I don't know. I hope you can find faith in the rehab and that you may have or find good people to support you. I'm sure when you get back the power to help yourself, pull yourself out of the misery, you will do that.
    And we're here to support you as well as much as we can, of course.
     
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  5. ItsNotWorthIt

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    too late today tho... a,ptjer another bottle down and allot of porn -.- ex typed me today aswell (well online ex-.-.... never met her in real life) puked so much... still drinking more tho
    good nightall ty for the words tho
     
  6. shutdown66

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    Stay strong brother.... addiction is a dangerous animal which eats away at your life, you need to pick up the mental sword and cast that animal away, it has NO RIGHT to be eating away at you.

    think of it as data in your mind man... all the problems you have, they are data and you can clear that data and INPUT new data which is better for you.

    I'm not gonna tell you that you NEED to be a jock or alpha male to rise to a higher level, but you do need to realise THERE IS TOMORROW, tomorrow is the day of endless possibility, for you to BECOME and DO the things you wanna do in your life.

    Isolation and sadness is a state of mind, but so is happiness.... nothing is more or less, in the scheme of things its all pointlessness, but its up to you how the pointlessness is played out, in a negative way or in a positive way.... that choice is strictly yours and when your figure this out, its the best feeling ever.

    Good luck brother, stay strong.
     
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