so basically i have been dating my girlfriend for almost 2 years and i watched porn from the age of about 13 and i properly got hooked at like 15. i would basically masturbate every day or at least 4 times a week. when i got to 16 almost 17 i would watch porn every day. even if i was not horny i would masturbate as i felt i had to. i would never really get that horny just felt i needed to. there were times i would feel horny and watch porn but it would be that time of night where i was free in my room and would do it before i slept. anyway, even when i started dating my girlfriend i would still wank every day. but recently i would get super jealous. i admit i am a jealous person. somebody messages my girlfriend i get nervous thinking they are wanting to get with her but i know deep down it would never happen. it would be where we almost broke up several times because i was so jealous or controlling and all that. i would watch porn that is between gay and straight, but rarely was gay but lately gay would be a normal thing i would watch (HOCD). im not gay i remember crying because i knew i was not gay but would get turned on by this, never fancied a guy in my life only girls and only when i was horny i would watch gay porn. so i tried to find some straight porn that i would enjoy watching like big ass and stuff like that, but then i found cuckold i dont know why but it kind of turned me on even tho i was disgusted and hated when i thought about it. there was a point where we had kind of stop talking im not sure why but still both liked each other and i felt as if she was talking to other people instead of me, making me jealous. then i would randomly think she would be getting without guys and it would disgust me but i could feel my dick enjoying the thought. it would randomly pop into my head and turn me on straight away. i knew i was addicted to porn when we would do sexual things i would not climax but soon started fantasizing to get the job finished. and i remember thinking about her with another guy some times and it would let me finish. i would read about storys online of people who are married allow their wives get with other people and it would turn me on and i would masturbate to it and soon started watching videos of girls having sex with their boyfriend or husband and talk about getting with other guys. then i knew i had a serious problem. i started researching how to stop fantasizing about this and then i found nofap and how it helps with this. so i started. started 2 weeks ago to allow my self to reach climax during sex without fantasizing and not take 1 hr long. so now u have read kind of a backstory about my problem. i am 2 weeks in and i feel very distressed and jealous randomly throughout every day for the past 4 days and i have noticed my fantasizing about this fetish has decreased a lot but i feel so fucking distressed and nervous, and i don't know why. is it because of this fetish and how its related to my girlfriend? btw i would never ever want to do the cuckold thing in real life but have thought about it but have stopped by self. (only 2 times max i think) what would be the best tips or opinions on this situation? im sorry if this is super messy and u might be confusing what im asking but please ask if u are insure to help me as i am desperate and think its ruining my life and i think im that distressed i cant think properly. i dont want to break up with her as i love her but these fetishes i think about are fucking my life up atm so emotionally. i do not entertain these thoughts as when i started nofap and if it comes up in my head i straight away stop and calm down and realise it from my head. 7 days into nofap i had sexual activity with my girl and all up until this thought came in (split second thought about this fetish and i felt as if i was going to climax but straight away chucked it out my head) i knew i was going to orgasm quick before the thought even came into my head and 5 mins later i orgasmed without any fantasizing but with only a split second of fantasising which never did much in the end only for that split second. i orgasmed in 20 mins which is amazing for me as i usually take about 1 hr or more sometimes but we did it again a couple of days ago but took about 40-60 mins to finish, we were both tired but it felt amazing but still took so long. i never fantasized what so ever during it. but i still feel this fetish is kinda of turning me on, not as much as it used to as i would get a full on boner as soon as i thought about it but if it comes into my head i can feel my dick tingle but never a boner but i straight away throw it out my head. do u think its getting better or is there still a long way to go? and how do i deal with this nervous and distressed throught the day?